Tags:
Romance,
Texas,
Inspirational,
Adultery,
small town,
forgiveness,
excommunication,
bitterness,
jaded,
Disfellowship,
Shunned,
Preacher
well?â
âAwesome.â My remark came out more sarcastic than I intended, but the irony of my mother asking about my welfare was just too much.
And yet I wanted her to care.
She stepped forward as though to sit next to me, but my legs were draped across the seat. Instead, she perched two seats down and peered at my feet.
She would view my behavior as rudeârebelliousâand she really didnât deserve that. After all, she hadnât kicked me out of the house. She merely went along with it, so submissive she couldnât stand up to her husband.
Not even for me.
Turning, I tucked my feet beneath my chair, and Mother managed to convey both approval and disgust with her lipstick smile.
âAre you still staying with Ansel and Velma Pickett?â
âNo, Iâve got my own place.â If sheâd socialized with the working class, she wouldâve heard it by now.
Her eyes widened in surprise. âHow can youââ She looked away, unable to hide the raw emotion. Something like jealousy. âWhere?â
âItâs a small house up on the Caprock, half a mile past the scenic overlook. Itâs not much, but itâs all right for the baby and me.â I peered at her, evaluating her mood and weighing my options. âYou could come up sometime. To see the place.â I laughed, feeling exposed. âI make a mean iced mocha.â
She ran her fingertip along the edge of my book resting on the chair between us. âI ⦠I know that house. Iâve been there.â
I held back a laugh. She couldnât have surprised me more if sheâd stood on a washer and danced a schottische. Even though she had lived in Trapp her entire life, my mother never set foot in real estate less than a certain square footage.
âYouâve been in that house?â
She snatched at her purse. âYour father insisted I give you some cash. Itâs not much, but it will help with rent and groceries.â And just like that, her stoic indifference fell into place.
âIâm not taking his money.â I couldnât take it. My father made it clear there were expectations attached to anything I accepted from him.
âFawn â¦â She dragged out my name, shredding my nerves as she pulled me through memories of arguments.
âHe canât even bear to look at me, Mom.â
Her shoulders dropped a half inch. âHeâs not heartless, only disappointed.â
âHeâs always disappointed.â
She almost leaned back in the blue chair but caught herself before her tanned shoulder made contact. âI know.â
Yes, she knew exactly what I meant. We may have never enjoyed the kind of mother-daughter relationship where we stayed up late and discussed girl problems, but we could empathize about my father without ever speaking a word.
âI ran into Lynda Turner,â I said. It was a low blow, and I knew it, but the endless list of forbidden topics had worn on me during our short separation. âTell me what he did to that woman.â
My mother inspected the cuticle of a painted fingernail. âI donât see how that matters.â
âObviously it matters to Lynda.â
âThen ask her, not me.â
âI shouldnât have to.â I leaned back so forcefully, the plastic popped, and I wondered if I had broken the blasted chair. My mother never really talked to me. When my pregnancy test came back positive, I thought we might finally have common ground, but no, she only pulled further away.
âCalm down,â she purred. âThe fact is, your father dated Lynda Turner when we were young, but he broke up with her to date me.â She rubbed her cuticle again, adjusted her blouse, cleared her throat. âBut I wouldnât mention it to him if I were you.â
She left something out, I knew it. Her explanation sounded too simple, too clean, and way too forthcoming. I knew better than to think they
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