back to her pizza, Charlie Joe and I walked back to our table. âSee?â he said. âWe make fun of each other all the time. Thatâs what people do. Youâre overreacting. Having a phone is an essential part of the middle school experience.â
I rolled my eyes, mainly because I knew he liked it when I did. We ate quietly for another minute, then I whispered, âNareem and I broke up.â
Charlie Joe dropped his fork. âHuh? When?â
âOver the weekend.â
âThatâs crazy,â Charlie Joe said. âWhat about the concert? And the backstage passes and meeting Jane?â
I lowered my voice even further. âI sent Nareem a text that I meant to send to you. It was awful. He forgave me, because heâs an amazing person. But weâre not going out anymore.â
âOh, wow.â Charlie Joe whistled. âHoly moly. Now I get the whole text thing.â He put his hand on my shoulder. âIâm really sorry.â
âItâs okay,â I said. âIt had to happen. Just not this way.â I pointed at his phone. âSo you go ahead and send all the texts you want. Iâm taking a break.â
âGot it,â Charlie Joe said. Then, after a second, he asked, âDo you mind if I ask you what was in the text you sent to Nareem that you were supposed to send to me?â
âGo put on a pair of matching socks,â I answered.
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19
HALLWAY CONVERSATION
I needed to tell two other people about my plan.
Nareem was first. I found him after lunch, walking to Social Studies alone. I slid up alongside him.
âCan I talk to you for a second?â
He didnât look up. âYes.â
âI wanted you to know something. I am giving up texting. I am giving up all that stuff. Itâs horrible. Itâs scary. People write things they donât mean and would never say. I need to changeâit took hurting you like this to realize that. I wanted to tell you face-to-face.â
Nareem nodded. âGood for you. You are following Janeâs advice. Connect.â Then he started walking a little faster, just to get away from me, I think. âI hope you will connect very well with your next boyfriend.â
I hurried to catch up to him. âNareem, stop.â
He stopped.
âThe last thing I would ever want to do was to make you unhappy,â I told him. âYouâre seriously the best person I know.â
âIt is not necessarily always a good thing, being such a good person,â Nareem said. âPeople donât necessarily want good people as their boyfriends. Perhaps I should try to be a bit less good.â
âNo!â
He finally looked at me. I suddenly felt embarrassed, and had to turn away.
âSo, is this real?â he asked me. âYou are giving up texting?â
âAnd everything else,â I said. âIâm giving up my whole phone for a week.â
âWell, I will be curious to see how it works out,â Nareem said. âThere are many times during the day we need our phones for important things, like getting in touch with our parents.â
Iâd already thought of that, before deciding not to think about that. âIâll figure out another way,â I said.
âWell, good luck.â
We arrived at his classroom. âOh, one other thing,â Nareem said. âI think itâs best if we donât talk to each other for a while.â
That felt like a punch to the stomach. A punch that I deserved. âOkay,â I said.
He gave me a sad smile and walked into the room. I started to reach into my backpack to see if anyone had texted me, stopped myself, and went to class.
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20
TO BAND OR NOT TO BAND
I found Becca at recess, playing basketball with the boys as usual. I watched her play for about five minutes, then waved and got her attention.
âI need to talk to you.â
She ran by. âCan it wait?â she asked.