just help me figure out what Iâm supposed to do here, Iâd be grateful. Real grateful .
Rodney stared at the computer screen, the heels of his hands resting on the desk, fingers lightly touching the keyboard. Opening the e-mail program hadnât been difficult, but clicking on the link that would open the mailbox named âBradâ was proving problematic. Every time he reached for the mouse, his chest tightened. He hadnât looked at e-mails to and from his son since the day Brad died. But it seemed important that he do so now.
It had been two days since Trevor Reynolds came to the ranch to talk to him and Penny, and in those two days the promise Brad had extracted from the singer had never been far from Rodneyâs thoughts. His son had had the gift of discernment. Heâd cared about and accepted people wherever he found them, then had drawn them closer to God by being a loving friend. Brad had sent Trevor to Kings Meadow out of love. Rodney understood that much.
He clicked the mouse, looked at the long list of saved e-mails to and from his sonâdating back to his first yearin collegeâand scrolled to the one heâd received soon after Brad moved to Nashville.
Dear Dad,
Youâre not going to believe this. At least I canât believe it. Not that it happened this fast, anyway. I got to audition for Trevor Reynolds, and he hired me. Maybe Iâm that good or maybe itâs because Trevor and I have become friends through e-mail over the years or maybe itâs because Iâm so inexperienced he can pay me less than heâd have to pay others. Whatever the reason, Iâm now employed as a drummer in a band. Weâll be going out on the road in less than three weeks.
Nashvilleâs been a little hard to get used to. Itâs so big compared to Kings Meadow. Even compared to Boise. Everything moves faster too. But Iâm going to like it. Iâm sure of it.
This would sound crazy to lots of people, but I know youâll understand. I donât think God brought me to Nashville just so I could play my drums, even though He delights in giving good gifts. I think Iâm here to help Trevor in other ways. He doesnât know Christ, first off, and from a few things heâs said I guess his dad was rough on him. Maybe even knocked him around when he was a kid. Anyway, they werenât close like you and me, and Iâve got the feeling Trevor doesnât care much for the idea of a heavenly Father because he never knew what a loving dad could be like. Heâs a good guy, but heâs got a wounded spirit.
Dad, please tell Penny how much I love her. We didnâtpart on the best of terms, but you already know that. Tell her Iâm sorry I disappointed her but that this was what I had to do. I hope one day sheâll see that.
Take care of yourself. I hope your backâs not giving you too much grief.
Love you,
Brad
Rodney drew a shaky breath and let it out slowly. He remembered reading this e-mail almost a year ago, but Bradâs words hadnât made the impact on him then as they did now.
Lord, help me honor my sonâs last request. Thank You for sending Trevor to us. Help me know the right things to say and do while he is here in Kings Meadow. Holy Spirit, mend this young manâs heart.
After taking another breath, he clicked on the next e-mail in the list and began to read again.
Brad
2007
O N THE FIRST NIGHT OF WINTER CHURCH CAMP , A fire burned bright in the lodgeâs stone fireplace, but the heat from the flames didnât reach all the way to where Brad sat, second row, left side of the room. Kids were there from six different churches, seventh graders up to seniors in high school. Bradâs first year at winter camp, he hadnât mixed much with kids he didnât know already. Instead heâd hung out with his best friends from Kings Meadow and been content to do so.
But this year heâd come to the opening