with her,â she said to her boyfriend. He glanced at me with judgmental eyes before stepping away to sit in his car, which was parked in the vacant lot near the building.
âWhy did you leave me hanging like that?â Toya asked. Her voice was edgy and full of confrontation.
âToya, I got scared. I didnât know what to do. The police were arresting you. You were yelling and hollering at them. What was I supposed to do?â
âYou were supposed to have my back!â Toya pushed my shoulder and I backed up. She wanted to fight me. I could see it in her eyes.
âToya, look. We just have a big misunderstanding here,â I said, trying to calm her down. Other people who were just hanging out on the block started paying attention to our conflict. If we kept up our loud argument, it wouldnât be long before a crowd would form and encourage us to knuckle-up our fists and beat each other senseless for their entertainment.
âNo, there is no misunderstanding. All I know is that I should kick your ass for what you did. Because of you, the department of family services took Junior away from me.â
âThey took Junior from you?â I was surprised by that.
âYeah, and itâs your entire fault,â she said, absolutely convinced of her reasoning.
âHow is that my fault? I told you not to bring that boy in the first place.â
âI called you, Keysha, because I wanted you to come and get him for me. I didnât care about going to jail because I knew Iâd get out. But I didnât want Junior to go with me. Instead of helping me, you ran your scary ass out the door.â
âYou know whatââ I stopped backing away from her and stood my ground. ââthat is not my fault. I told you that if something went down and we needed to get away, Junior would be a problem. You should have thought about the consequences before taking him along with us. Plus, why are you always blaming other people when things donât go right for you?â
âNo. Thatâs not the way I see it.â Toya pushed me hard and I pushed her hard back. âEverything that went wrong is your fault. We would have gotten out of there quicker had you not been lollygagging for thirty minutes with that salesgirl.â
âFight!â I heard someone on the street yell out. Before I knew it there were people gathering to watch the outcome of our conflict.
âToya, letâs not do this,â I pleaded with her. âWeâve been friends far too long.â
âNo, Iâm about to open up a can of whup ass on you.â Toya reached into a back pocket and pulled out the straight razor sheâd shown me a few days earlier. I quickly backed up because I didnât want to end up with a facial scar like my motherâs friend Simon. She opened it up and swung it at me but I was too far away from her.
âIt wasnât my fault!â I shouted at her, hoping to get her to see my point of view. âWhy are you always starting fights?â I asked but didnât get a response. I quickly scanned the ground in search of a weapon of my own but didnât find one.
âCome on, Keysha, you canât run. Itâs about to go down,â she taunted me. I was a nervous wreck. I didnât know what to do. I couldnât turn and run because there was a crowd of people surrounding us; I certainly didnât want to step forward and risk getting split open by a razor.
âToya, please,â I pleaded with her, but she swung at me again. This time she aimed for my face.
âSomebody help me!â I shouted out, but someone from the crowed answered back.
âHelp yourself!â
âToya, how was I supposed to know that was going to happen, huh?â I asked. I figured that if I kept talking I might get through to her. âI mean, why would I want to see them take your baby from you?â
âBecause you wanted a baby with