by day and night, and that we donât need to see a lot of people with their eyes wide openâdeer-caught-in-the-headlightsâjumping at every sound.â
âLogical,â she told him.
âPardon?â
âLogical. If they exist, they must exist in daylight as well as in the middle of the night.â
âWhat about Griffin?â he asked her.
Once again, she froze. He had a knack for throwing in a tough question just when she had relaxed.
âWhat about him?â she asked dully. âHeâs dead.â
âDo you ever âseeâ him?â
She shook her head. âNo.â
âYou two were together for years,â he commented.
âFive, to be exact.â
âYou didnât foresee his death?â he asked.
She stared at him, every muscle in her body as tense as piano wire. âWhen they told us that the cancer had spread into every organ and riddled his bones, yes, I foresaw it.â
âIâm sorry,â he said. âI wondered if it made youâsusceptible.â
âSusceptible to what?â she demanded.
âSeeing ghosts. I just wanted to make sure that you were over it, and that you were standing on even ground.â
âAm I over it? Do we ever get over the loss of loved ones? NoâI have never managed to do so. My parents, and Griffin, are always alive in my heart. Do I accept the reality of it? Yes. And they are all gone. Gone. They donât come and take my hand and direct me to dead bodiesâor to lost children, for that matter.â She paused, needing to wet her lips. She didnât sip her wine, she chugged it. Most unattractive, she was sure; she didnât care. He could be so completely courteous. He could make her comfortable, he could make her laugh. And then, he could home right in for the kill.
âWhat about you?â she demanded more heatedly than she had intended. âDo your lost field agents come and speak to you in the night? Do they ask you how you didnât happen to get there in time to save them?â
There wasnât so much as a crack in his expression, not a change whatsoever in the steady dark blue eyes that surveyed her.
âNo. They are gone. Like you, I accept that they are gone. Like you, I do remain haunted by the lives they once led.â
She flushed. He should feel badly for badgering her about the losses in her life. She was left feeling similarlyâbut she had phrased her words in a much meaner manner.
âIâm sorry,â she murmured uncomfortably. Damn him! She didnât need to be apologizing to him.
âOne thing is trueâwe canât undo the past. We can only do our best in the present, and hope to find the answers in the future. Dessert? Coffee?â he asked her.
She shook her head. âNo, thank you.â
âWant to split a bread pudding? Itâs out of this world here.â
She sat back, still uneasy, and totally baffled by his ability to remain so unruffled. She had been tested throughout dinner, she realized.
âIâm fine, thank you.â
âAnother glass of wine?â he asked.
âFine, why not?â
He ordered brandy and bread pudding, and she had another glass of wine. His conversation turned casual. He talked about his love for the city; he had worked here for nearly a year when he had first joined the bureau. âThings are always just a little bit different in these parts. Louisiana laws are still based on Napoleonic CodeâFrench lawâwhile the majority of the country is based on English law. Itâs not major, but there are some differences. Youâll note they have parishes instead of counties.â
âI went to Tulane. I know that,â she told him. Inane. He had her dossier.
âAnd majored in history and philosophy,â he said.
She nodded. âAnd you?â
He shrugged. âI spent six years in college. I liked it. I might have stayed a college student all my