Why did he always do that? Every other guy tended to stare me up and down. The popular, cocky ones all tried to impress me. The unpopular ones treated me like some princess on a pedestal. I didnât particularly care for any of that.
But Gary was different. He was good-looking, but not at all arrogant about it. Quiet, but not self-effacing. He didnât even seem to want many friends, as if his aloneness contented him.
How could anyone be content without tons of friends?
I knew lots of people at our large high school, plus many more at surrounding schools. My freshman yearbook was so marked up with written notes, you could hardly see half the pictures. While Gary obviously would hate the limelight, I sought it, singing to anybody whoâd listen. In fact, one day I knew I was going to be lead singer in a band.
Nothing about us was the same. None of my friends would ever think of putting the two of us together.
So why did Gary Donovon pull at me so much?
âHey, Simon.â I tapped my desk with a long red fingernail. My voice held a tinge of amusement. âIâm over here.â
His gray eyes scanned back to me.
I held his gaze, a little smile on my face. âYou know the conversation?â
He shrugged. âYeah.â
All around us buzzed fifteen versions of our French assignment for the day. Our teacher sat at her desk, reading a magazine. âOkay. You take the first line.â
Gary focused on my hands. âAimes-tu les fleurs?â Do you like flowers?
âOui, très bien.â Yes, I like them very much.
âLequel est-ce que tu aimes le mieux?â Which is your favorite?
âLa rose blanche.â A white rose.
Gary shifted in his chair. âVraiment? Pourquoi?â Really? Why?
The last line of Mrs. Wrightâs conversation was totally lame.
âLes roses blanches sont purs et frais. Je veux les toucher.â White roses look pure and fresh. They make me want to touch them.
Garyâs gaze rose again to my face. Long seconds passed as he looked at me, his lips pressing together. For the first time I noticed darker gray flecks around the outside of his irises.
Strange. It almost felt like he wanted to tell me something â¦
I waited.
His gaze fell away.
A sigh puffed from my lips. âForget the last line?â
His head pulled back. âNo. I just â¦â He cleared his throat, then rattled off the sentence. âAh, jâai pensé que tu préférais les roses rouges.â Oh. I thought youâd like red ones better.
I nodded. âWell. Very good. I give you an A.â
One half of his mouth curved. He still wouldnât look at me. âYou get an A too.â
And with that, he turned around and faced the front.
I stared at the back of his head. What was it with this guy? Everybody else was still talking, and the teacher would read that magazine of hers for another good ten minutes.
An even bigger question filled my thoughts. Why was I afraid to ask him why he cut our conversation shortâagain? With any other guy Iâd push it in a flirty wayââHey, why wonât you talk? Something wrong with me?â
Instead I sat back, arms folded, focusing on his neck just above the collar line of his blue shirt. The bottom of his hair looked a little ragged, like it needed trimming.
He was going to tell me something. I felt it.
For two months I would wonder what it was.
11
O ne day in early December I walked into French class and saw the school principal standing near Mrs. Wrightâs desk. I dropped my pink three-ring binder on my desk and plopped down. What was up?
As soon as the bell rang, the principal announced that Mrs. Wright had just gone home sick, and there was no one to take her place.
âYou all need to stay in this room, understand? I donât want to find anyone walking the halls. And keep the noise down.â
With that, he leftâand we had a free hour.
The room immediately