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Monday July 12th
As I approached the change room this morning, raised voices inside made me pause with my hand on the doorknob. Tension pushed Sashaâs voice up half an octave. I heard Kevinâs name and yanked open the door. Sasha had her back to me and was pulling on bike shorts, which Ms. Kelly allows instead of tights in hot weather. She spun around when she heard me and snapped her mouth shut. Jamie, never the most sensitive person, bulldozed ahead. âSo what happens now? Will he go to jail?â
I couldnât hold back. âWhat happened?â
Jamie said, âKevin was driving under the influence and he got into an accident.â
âOh my God!â How much of that beer did he drink at the lake?
âIâm not discussing this with her.â Sasha turned her back to me and rummaged in her knapsack.
Jamie glanced from Sasha to me and back. She looked almost smug, which confirmed my suspicion that sheâd always resented our friendship. I waited to see whose side she would take, but I should have known. Jamie stepped up to Sasha, slipped one arm around her shoulders, and murmured words I couldnât make outâshe was either building Sasha up or tearing me down, maybe both at once. Either way, my presence obviously grated on them. I bolted and, as I flung open the outside door, crashed into Lisa.
âWhatâs wrong?â she said.
âSashaâs brother got into an accident and she wonât talk to me. Iâve got to get out of here.â
She touched my arm. âWaitâIâll come with you. I heard Kevinâs okay.â
Lisa guided me to Con Brio, a café on a corner a few blocks from the studio. It has two walls of windows, counters filled with newspapers and magazines, and long wooden tables where you can play chess or backgammon. Iâd never been in. Sitting in cafés was for grown-ups.
Grown-ups. Luckily, I didnât say that out loud. Older people, I meant. We crossed the threshold and entered the shop. Lisaâwho is older, after allâordered two iced lattes and chose a table for two in the window. The sun at her back made her dark hair glow with auburn highlights. She pushed one of the tall glasses across the table to me. We faced each other, stirring in sugar.
âIâll tell you what I know,â Lisa said. She didnât use the excited tone that Sasha reserves for juicy gossip. She was matter-of-fact. Her boyfriend and Kevin have friends in common, soccer players. Theyâd held an after-game party on Friday night. âThe accident happened on his way home. He ran a red light and got sideswiped.â Lisa twisted her glass in her hands. The barista was hammering at the espresso machine.
Kevin didnât sustain serious injuries, but his license was suspended. He has to go to court and will miss the second half of tree-planting season. âHis parents are so angry that they want him out of their place, like, yesterday.â
I stared at the tabletop.
Lisa touched my hand. âIt could have been a lot worse. And Iâve seen other guys smarten up after an accident like that. In the meantime, I wouldnât take anything Sasha says too personally.â
I frowned at my glass and poked at the ice cubes with my stir stick. âDid you hear her call me a slut when I walked up to you guys at lunch on Friday?â
The roaring of the espresso machine drowned out Lisaâs response. A young woman struggled to push a stroller into the café until a man entering behind her held the door. I chewed my lip and waited for the grinding, hissing, and banging to cease.
âNo, I didnât,â Lisa said.
âIâm sure I heard her say it, and then I figured youâd all been talking about me.â
âI wouldnât have joined in that kind of gossip, Natalie.â The warmth in Lisaâs face convinced me. Sasha may have her issues with meâmaybe she even hates me right