another way to earn Carsonâs pay.
Mom wobbles a bit as she turns for her bedroom door, and I realize itâs going to have to be sooner rather than later. That means going directly to Bender. Which also means going to my uncle.
âWatch a movie with me?â Mom tugs at the loosened ponytail holder sliding down her hair. âItâll only take me a minute to change.â
No, it wonât, but if I tell her Iâm not interested, itâll be another round of Youâre Just Like Your Father and I canât handle that right now. âYeah. Okay.â
As soon as the bathroom door shuts, I dial Paul.
âWho is this?â My uncle sounds like Iâve woken him up. I have no idea if thatâs because he just went to bed or because he never got out of it.
âHey, itâs Griff.â
âGriff, my man. Heyyyyyy.â
âLook.â I pause, listening to make sure the shower has cut on and my mom canât hear me. âI need work. Think you can help?â
âWhat kind of work?â
âI heard your friend Bender might need a hand.â I pray that Paul gets so wrapped up in the compliment that Joe Bender is his friend that he doesnât think to ask me where I âheardâ about anything.
âI could make a call,â he says.
Relief makes me sag. I plug our ancient VCR into the television and look through the pile of tapes lying next to it. âGreat. I appreciate you doing that.â
âIâll text you if he wants to meet. This number?â
âYeah.â
âThis could be a good opportunity for you,â Paul says, and thereâs a scrape and puff on the other end as my uncle lights a cigarette. âYou could forget about that pansy art shit and get a real job.â
Like you? I want to ask. âI gotta go, Paul. Keep me posted on what he says.â
âWill doâhey! Hey, Griff?â
âWhat?â
He takes one drag and then another. âYou in trouble?â
The shower shuts off. Sheâs singing now.
I give the videotapes a kick. âNothing I canât handle.â
7
To my surprise, Mom crashes. Weâre not even twenty minutes into the VHS tape of Superman (she likes when he catches Lois Lane) and she caves, going to bed with promises to actually get up in the morning, leaving me pacing in the dark.
There is something supremely unfair about the fact that sheâll be able to sleep tonight and Iâll be up for hours.
I check my phone repeatedly, but thereâs still no return text from Wick. If Paul can get me in, it wonât matter. Sheâs blowing me off and thatâs fine. Not even really that surprising. Weâre not friends . . .
I flex my hand, somehow still able to feel her skin against my fingertips.
I swallow, shake myself. Iâm being an idiot. Itâs not like I need Wick to respond. I can stick to the plan, go through Joe Bender. Heâs Michael Tateâs right-hand monkey. Together, they run most of the meth dealing in our area and, rumor has it, expanded into credit card scamming. Tate was arrestedâand escaped months ago. I donât think anyoneâs heard from him or seen him, but Carsonâs point makes sense: Someoneâs got to be helping him. Itâs probably Bender though. He keeps their businesses going. Itâs the secret people from our neighborhood know, but people from our neighborhood donât talk about. It can get you killed.
I lean against the kitchen counter, check my phoneâs screen again. Still no text. I am officially getting blown off. I should take the hint.
I donât think Iâm going to.
Maybe itâs because I know Iâm not going to sleep or because Iâm tense or maybe itâs just because I can , but I open the browser on my phone and search for Wickâs new address. I know her foster parentsâ names from some of the local newspaper articles, and after spending a few minutes