Iâll call my friend and get you signed up.â
Dennyâs mother stopped what she was doing.
âWhatâs that about a race?â she asked, with her arms across her chest.
âIâm going to be in a dogsled race this weekend,â replied Denny happily. âGrandpa says Iâm ready.â
Delia glared at her father.
âWhy do you fill her mind with such notions? Sheâs a girl, Dad. She shouldnât be racing dogs or hiking up to cabins all by herself, for godâs sake! Itâs too dangerous.â
âBut, Mom, youâre always telling me that a woman can be anything she wants to be,â said Denny. âYouâre always telling me to believe in myself. Were you lying?â
âNo,â replied her mother. âBut you need to act more like a girl, or youâll end up all alone.â
Denny thought her mother was really talking about herself. She knew that her motherâs generation had, for the most part, turned their backs on the old ways, wanting their children, instead, to fit in with the new world . . . the white world.
âYou need to stop hanging around with dogs in the woods and make some friends. Why canât you wear a dress once in a while? And would it kill you to put on some make-up? Why canât you be more like that Mary Paniaq?â
Denny bit her lip, literally. She wanted to scream. She wanted to throw something.
Be like Mary! If Mother only knew what I know, would she think a pregnant, pot-smoking, alcoholic teenager with a total disregard for her baby is better than me?
âWhat about what I want?â she yelled, almost in tears. âWhat about who I want to be? Maybe I donât want to be like you !â
On hearing the last words, her mother let her jaw slack and her arms fell to her side.
Denny grabbed her parka and school bag. She wheeled around in the open doorway.
âI am going to be in the race! You canât stop me!â she shouted before slamming the door.
On the walk to school Denny felt bad. She realized how hard it had to be for her mother, raising a child alone, living with her parents in a small village offering but few good jobs, living where everyone knows your business. Denny remembered how Anne had written in her diary that she hated her mother but how, by the end of the book, she came to understand how much it would hurt her mother to read something like that from her own daughter.
âI donât hate her,â she said to the deaf trees. âI just want her to love me for who I am.â
At school, while standing behind the building during lunch break, Denny told everyone that she was going to enter the dog race.
âThatâs crazy!â said Johnny Shaginoff, taking a drag on a cigarette.
âGirls donât mush,â said Mary Paniaq, taking a sip from her flask.
Norman Fury rolled his eyes and shook his head in disbelief.
âYou donât have a chance in hell,â he said.
Only Silas Charley said anything encouraging.
âIâll go,â he whispered, when everyone else was talking about something else.
âWhatâd you say?â asked Deneena.
âIâll go watch you race.â
After everyone else went into the building, Denny grabbed Silas by his jacket and stopped him in front of the main doors.
âHow come youâre being nice to me?â she asked.
âI just like watching dog races. My uncle used to race.â
âBut youâve never been nice to me before. I mean, whenever you guys are all drunk or high, all you ever do is make fun of me, saying how I donât have a father, how Iâm such a tomboy, or how Iâm such an old fashioned goody-two-shoes.â
Silas leaned close to Denny.
âIâll tell you a little secret,â he whispered. âI donât really do none of those bad things. I just want people to think I do, so theyâll like me. Thatâs all.â
âBut Iâve