Rutherford Bighorn Ranch had been his favorite. Heâd escaped a lot of the censure and spared Antonia some of it, especially when he exiled himself to France. But Antonia and her father and mother got the whole measure of local outrage. Denial did no good, because how could she defend herself against knowing glances and haughty treatment? The gossip had hurt her mother most, leaving her virtually isolated from most of the people who knew her. Sheâd had a mild heart attack from the treatment of her only child as a social outcast. Ironically that had seemed to bring some people to their senses, and the pressure had been eased a bit. But Antonia had left town very quickly, to spare her mother any more torment, taking her broken heart with her.
Perhaps if Powell had thought it through, if the wedding hadnât been so near, the ending might have been different. Heâd always been quick-tempered and impulsive. He hated being talked about. Antonia knew that at least three people had talked to him about the rumors, and one of them was the very minister who was to marry them. Later, Antonia had discovered that they were all friends of Sally and her family.
To be fair to Powell, heâd had more than his share of public scandal. His father had been a hopeless gambler who lost everything his mother slaved at housekeeping jobs to provide. In the end heâd killed himself when he incurred a debt he knew heâd never be able to repay. Powell had watched his mother be torn apart by the gossip, and eventually her heart wore out and she simply didnât wake up one morning.
Antonia had comforted Powell. Sheâd gone to the funeral home with him and held his hand all through the ordeal of giving up the mother heâd loved. Perhaps grief had challenged his reason, because although heâd hidden it well, the loss had destroyed something in him. Heâd never quite recovered from it, and Sally had been behind the scenes, offering even more comfort when Antonia wasnât around. Susceptible to her soft voice, perhaps heâd listened when he shouldnât have. But in the end, heâd believed Sally, and heâd married her. Heâd never said he loved Antonia, and it had been just after theyâd become engaged that Powell had managed several loans, on the strength of her fatherâs excellent references, to get the property heâd inherited out of hock. He was just beginning to make it pay when heâd called off the wedding.
The pain was like a knife. Sheâd loved Powell more than her own life. Sheâd been devastated by his defection. The only consolation sheâd had was that sheâd put him off physically until after the wedding. Perhaps that had hurt him most, thinking that she wassleeping with poor old George when she wouldnât go to bed with him. Who knew? She couldnât go back and do things differently. She could only go forward. But the future looked much more bleak than the past.
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She went back to work in the new year, apparently rested and unworried. But the doctorâs appointment was still looming at the end of her first week after she started teaching.
She didnât expect them to find anything. She was run-down and tired all the time, and sheâd lost a lot of weight. Probably she needed vitamins or iron tablets or something. When the doctor ordered a blood test, a complete blood count, she went along to the lab and sat patiently while they worked her in and took blood for testing. Then she went home with no particular intuition about what was about to happen.
It was early Monday morning when she had a call at work from the doctorâs office. They asked her to come in immediately.
She was too frightened to ask why. She left her class to the sympathetic vice principal and went right over to Dr. Claridgeâs office.
They didnât make her wait, either. She was hustled right in, no appointment, no nothing.
He got up when she