wonderful.â
âEdâare you kidding me?â
âRoseâ¦â He shoved his hands in his jacket pockets. âI was giving you a compliment.â
âFirst of all, I am anything but wonderful. And secondlyâ¦â I tried to breathe. My heart pounded. âYou donât get to do that anymore.â
âDo what?â He lowered his voice. âPay you a compliment? Do you mind telling me whatâs so wrong about that?â He enunciated the âT.â Staccato words. That was how Ed expressed anger. Snapping his consonants. No more. No less.
Rebecca placed a hand on his arm. A gesture of ownership. He glanced over at her and then back at me.
âI canât believe youâre making a scene.â He stepped back and shook his head. âI guess it was a mistake to say hello. Iâm sorryââ
âAre you, Ed?â My voice cracked. âAre you really sorry?â No tears, no tears, no tears ⦠I hugged myself, trying to hold them at bay.
âRoseâ¦â His blue eyes were cool and narrowed with, what? Anger? Revulsion? Regret? âIâm sorry this couldnât have been a more civilized encounter.â He turned away and guided Rebecca by her pointy elbow to the opposite end of the field.
My heart thudded harder against my rib cage. I couldnât breathe. âOh, God.â I pushed the heels of my hands against my temples. I canât faint, not here. I eased onto the ground and hugged my knees. I was trembling. I couldnât stop. I was going into shock. No, I canât. Not here. Not now. I canât do that to Annie. I rested my forehead on my knees. Breathe, Rosalie. Breathe.
I felt a hand on my back. I gasped. There. Air. I took in some air. I looked up. A boy crouched next to me. âYou okay?â It was the boy without the cap.
âYes. I mean, no. Not really.â
âWho was that dude? He looked like a serious pant load.â
âWhat? Did you just call my husband a âpant loadâ?â I laughed. âOh, my gosh,â I said, still laughing. I donât know why or how, but it was the release I needed. I looked up at him. âGod bless you ⦠Whatâs your name?â
âConnor OâMalley.â
âThatâs a good name,â I said. âIâm a Finnegan.â
âWell, Mrs. Finneganâ¦â He held out his hand and helped me to stand up. âYou look like you could use a beer.â
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Annie and I walked arm-in-arm back to her dorm. The scent of dust and drying sweat emanated from her clothes. âI didnât know, Mom, I swear. He never said he would be bringing her.â
âI know, honey. Iâm so sorry. It canât be too much fun for you, either.â Our pace was brisk and I appreciated the chance to move. I pulled her closer to me.
âHe wants to have dinner tonight, but I told him I already had plans with you.â
âOh, Annie.â I brushed a stray hair from her face. I noticed a tear atop her dirty cheekbone. âThis isnât fair. Itâs your first parentsâ weekend. We have no business putting you through this.â
Lampposts popped on as it grew dark. Annieâs cleats clicked on the sidewalk. âIt totally sucks,â she said. âI canât believe heâs doing this to us.â She brushed the tear away and wiped it on her shorts.
I wanted to side with her, align against Ed. After all, we were both victims. But I knew better. Iâd seen too many divorces where the parents argued through their children, sucking them into the middle, dividing their loyalties and forcing them to make choices a child should never have to make.
âHe didnât intend to hurt you.â
âAre you actually defending him?â She stopped walking.
âGod, no. But, well, I donât know. This is between us. Something went wrong, and I guess this is how it has