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to.”
    “ Janey, as I told you before, I cannot interfere in this
matter. It’s between her and Marc.”
    “ You
mean you won’t . Isn’t that what you’re saying? You won’t help her. Obviously you must have loved her once.
She’s all over your Web pages, more pictures than anyone else. You
had a large blown up photo of her on your wall and pictures of her
in your photo album.”
    “ Yes,
I loved her, but I’m no longer responsible for her.”
    “ He
will use her and abuse her. You must know that. I can see why you
loved her but she won’t be that person anymore after he’s done with
her. Can’t you see? Won’t you see?”
    “ She’s
not like you, Jane. Far was never far enough for her. She will get
far enough with Marc. She knows what she’s doing. She has been
loaned to him in the past. There are no surprises there for her.
Even if I were able to ‘save’ her, she would have to want to be
saved, and I’d never consider taking her back.”
    I didn’t take in
the words he said past “far was never far enough.” Could he be
telling me the truth? Did she want to go further than even he cared
to go? My thoughts spun around and around as he ever so gently
applied the healing salve that smelled of lavender and
coconut.
    I wondered if
Luke had limits. Where did it all stop for him? I couldn’t fathom
what Janice had wanted him to do, what he had refused to do. The
graphic pictures on the website alluded to all sorts of
debauchery.
    The conversation
about Janice left me somewhat relieved. I no longer worried as to
what would happen to her. It had, however, unleashed in me a fierce
curiosity. I needed to know the outside boundary I would face. I
needed to know the outside boundary I could endure.
    After Luke
finished tending to me, he lay down beside me, also on his stomach,
and faced me.
    “ You
won’t have much ability to move around the next few days.
Fortunately we aren’t leaving on our honeymoon for another week, so
you will have a chance to heal.” He gently brushed my hair away
from my eyes.
    “ Please tell me we aren’t going to a beach where the marks on
my back will show.” I sighed at the thought.
    “ I’m
taking you to Japan with me for work and pleasure.”
    “ Oh? I
thought we were skipping the honeymoon.”
    “ Why
did you think that?”
    “ Well,
you only just mentioned it.”
    He massaged my
right ear as we talked. “You could’ve asked,” he said.
    “ You
expect a lot from me. I should know when to ask and yet you hate
answering.”
    “ What
gives you the idea I hate answering interrogations?” he said,
smiling.
    “ You
always get mad when I ask you questions. How about that?” I
countered, rolling my eyes.
    “ Depends on the questions, I guess, and I still owe you one.”
He gave me a sly smile.
    “ That’s right, you do. And I have one.”
    After we had
first moved in together, Luke promised to answer five questions of
mine. He let me save one of the five for future use.
    “ Fine,
anything, I’ll answer.”
    “ Truly?”
    “ Hit
me,” he said, taking a strand of my wavy brown hair and wrapping it
around his finger.
    “ What
did Janice want you to do that ended the relationship?”
    “ You
had to ask that? Don’t you want to know something else?”
    “ Are
you giving me more than one question?”
    “ No.”
    “ Then
no. I asked what I want to know.”
    “ Fine,” he said. He sat up in bed. “It wasn’t one specific
thing. It was her need to be punished all the time. There was no
balance between making love and fucking. She would continually try
to anger me so I would discipline her. I no longer enjoyed our
relationship. We talked about it a couple of times but the truth
was that we weren’t a good match. Not like you and me, who are
meant to be together.”
    “ Wow.”
    “ Yes,
wow.”
    That day stayed
indelibly marked in my memory as one of my best and worst. The
beating I took at the hands of Janice, orchestrated by Marcello,
and approved by Luke