Never Enough by Ashley Johnson Read Free Book Online Page A

Secrets were seeming to become a normal part of my life these past few days and I didn’t like it but I was only doing what I felt was necessary right now.
    A look of disappointment shown on her face . I hated lying to her but I couldn’t tell her yet. I needed to see that Trevor and I could hang out just fine alone. "Oh ok, we'll probably hang around here, that ok Marcus?"
    He looked at her and grinned, "Sure babe, whatever you want to do." He leaned in and kissed her on her cheek. She turned to meet his lips and to keep me from puking and losing my orange juice I had earlier I smiled and went back into my room, quickly.
    I began drying my hair when the phone went off. I held my breath and picked it up. A message from Trevor stared at me. It read, "We still on for today?"
    Instantly beaming I replied, "Yeah, what time?" 
    He replied just as quick with, "I was hoping to grab lunch? Can I pick you up at 11:30?"
    No he most certainly could not pick me up. Halley had no idea we were hanging out and I had no intention of sharing that fact with her. She would try to tag along and that would just make it even more awkward than it already would be. The thought of offering to get him crossed my mind but I wasn't sure if he was one of those guys who disliked having a woman chauffeur them around and really he lived not far from us so it wasn’t a big deal. Surely, I didn’t want to step on anyone’s toes, not this early anyway. "No, I can meet you. Just say where."
    I had just finished placing my hair in a ponytail when he replied, "The new sandwich place by The Lounge?"
    "K, sounds good. See ya there."
    "See you soon Mace...."
    My heart cut several cartwheels and I started to take my hair out of the ponytail and actually fix it. No, we weren't going on a date; this was just two friends that just happened to have kissed hanging out. We were just going to eat lunch. We weren’t planning our whole lives out today. Ponytail it is. I applied a little make up and threw some earrings on. I glanced at the clock. It was close enough to 11; I was ready to leave before I talked my way out of this and stayed home.
    Uncle Gary's number popped up on my phone as I began to walk out my room. I stepped back in and answered.
    "Hello?"
    "Hey Macy, I just wanted to thank you for last night. I really appreciated it. I know I’d told you but I forgot myself and I didn’t know if you did."
    "No problem, like I texted you everything went fine."
    "Well the band isn't playing tonight, they have the night off and I am pretty much guessing it’s going to be a quiet night so unless you want to come just to hang out, take a break and relax kiddo."
    Relaxing sounded amazing right now. My brain and body needed it big time. "You sure Uncle Gary?"
    "Yes Macy. You need a break too." His voice paused then he began talking again with a slightly different tone in his voice. "Your mom called me this morning."
    I stood silent as I listened to what he just said. My eyes stung with tears that I refused to let fall. He didn’t call just to thank me again for covering him last night. There was always an ulterior motive. "What'd she want?" I asked rather flatly.
    "Just said she hasn't talked to you in a while and misses you."
    If she missed me she could pick up a phone. I never called her because I had nothing to say to her. It'd been six months since we'd spoken. Yes, I've kept count. And she still didn't believe a word I said. No many how many times I told her. The story never changed it was the same story word for word every time I talked to her and she didn’t believe me. She never would. "Oh. Well I’ll call her soon."
    He knew as well as I did that was a pure lie. There was no truth behind that sentence; I just said it to say it. "Look kiddo I know all of that was fucked up and I still can't believe she thinks the way she does..."
    I cut him off and a few tears fell down my cheeks. "He came in my room for a year!! He didn't always get what he wanted but he