Not Ready To Fall by Sophie Monroe Read Free Book Online

exactly made this a walk in the park either. If I'm being honest, I miss you too. :(
    Where are you?
    I'm not in NC.
    Huh?
    I'm on a little quest. Zane wanted to be scattered at his favorite places, so I'm off doing that. I needed to get away anyway. Please let me know if you need a ride and I'll have one of the guys come get you. I've had enough loss lately.
    Yeah. Fine. Thanks. Have a good trip.
    And just like that, silence. Jenny looked at me. I knew I should just shut up about the whole Charlotte thing. But, maybe as a fellow member of the female race, she might have some insight as to what in the ever loving fuck was going on in Charlotte's beautiful mind.
    She cocked an eyebrow. "Girl problems?"
    "You have no idea." I ran my hand through my beard. I knocked back the rest of my bourbon and pushed my glass forward for her to refill.
    She filled it and came around, taking a seat next to me.
    "Females are uncomplicatedly complicated. We have like ten different personalities. You just have to pick one or two you like and ignore the rest. I don't know you, but you seem like a nice enough guy. You're good looking, it looks like you work." She gestured at my hands.
    "It's a lot more than that. I got out of a relationship about a year and a half ago. I thought she was the one. I spent five years of my life preparing myself to take the plunge, then just like that she was gone. I'm not sorry she's gone, but still. After that, I decided it was time to do me for a while. My company was doing well, but it started doing better when I threw myself into it one-hundred percent. I like going out and doing shit with my friends and not having to answer to anyone. Charlotte and I met the night my brother was killed. She's smart, gorgeous and this is going to sound lame, but she has a good soul. She never gives me shit. She only wants what I want to give. She's not a taker and in the time that I've known her, she really hasn't had a crazy episode. The thing is, right before I came here she decided she wanted more. I was slowly warming up to the idea, but when she told me, I just let her go and now she hates me."
    She reached and put her hand on my forearm. "She doesn't hate you. In fact, she probably loves you. I was in a similar situation at one time. The heart wants what it wants. She most likely slowly fell in love and it hurts too much to hold on, so she felt the only way to make the pain go away was to let you go. Now, I can't decide what's best for you. It's hard to hold on to someone that you feel isn't holding on. She's scared. Think about if the situation were reversed, you'd feel pretty shitty. Here you are putting yourself out there and you're not getting much in return. It's like trying to run in cement. You're not getting very far. Now, I don't know if you want to give up your ideal bachelor life, or if you're just letting things play out. But, you need to make your mind up before it's too late. There's more than one fish in the sea and if she's a great girl, there's most likely a line of guys that would be happy to take your place. Just some food for thought."
    "I think I'm going to need another."
    She patted my arm and made it to the other side of the bar. I took some more money out of my wallet and left it on the counter. I let what she said sink in. Charlotte was everything I ever thought I wanted in a wife. She was smart and easy on the eyes. She'd make a great mother and was an awesome friend. As far as women went, she was pretty much a unicorn. She had her moments, but she was human. She was scared. Owen had really done a number on her and she was apprehensive about putting herself out there again to get hurt. Unknowingly, she had given me the ability to hurt her without me even realizing it. What's even worse is, I think I did hurt her. I needed a chance to really think about what was best for both of us.
     
     
     
     

CHAPTER SIX
    TAKE YOUR TIME
     
    I made it back to North Carolina just in time for Colt's bachelor