Oceans Submerged: Book Two, the Oceans Series by M. a. Deolmos Read Free Book Online Page B

“Come on baby, I’m sorry. Stop crying.”
    She turned her head to look at the white wall of empty space.
    “Liv please, look at me. I’m sorry. I don’t like seeing you in pain and I know you’re in a lot of fucking pain. I’m not stupid. You don’t fool me. You can’t just start trying to do things on your own just because you want to feel independent again. You’re just going to get yourself hurt.”
    “So!” I could have laughed at her just then because her stubbornness shined through at the worst moments.
    I watched as the pulse on her neck went wild as she tried to calm herself down. I ran my tongue along my bottom lip in desperate need to feel the one place on her body that gave me peace. “Liv please.”
    She huffed out a breath, still refusing to give me what I wanted. Not able to fight the urge any more, I leaned forward brushing her long silky hair away from her neck.
    When my lips finally rested on the place that soothed me completely, I scooted myself closer to her closing the distance between my chest and hers bracing my arms on either side of her tiny body. I kissed her neck softly as her crying stopped.
    Her little hand ran up the side of my arm resting on my chest where my heart was pounding. She pressed her neck onto my lips and I smiled against her sweet skin. She still smelled like her vanilla conditioner even after spending all this time cooped up in a hospital.
    “Ocean?” Her voice came out shaky and breathless.
    “Yeah, baby.”
    “Please don’t hate me. I know you’re mad and I know you’re angry with me. And I deserve it, I know I do, but if you still love me…if you still want me don’t...”
    I kissed her neck again. “Don’t what baby?”
    “Don’t abandon me. Don’t turn your back on me and leave me alone. Even if you have to hate me and be angry with me…I can take it, but if you walk away…”
    I pulled away, grabbing her face to make her look at me. Her eyes were red and swollen again and her bottom lip was still quivering. I couldn’t even imagine how much pain she was in and all to punish herself for hurting my family and me. But I had to be honest with her.
    Fuck, I had to be honest with myself.
    “You’re right Liv; I am mad and I am angry. I’m pissed that you would rather die than let me help you. I don’t care what excuse you had at the time. I fucking hate the fact that I shouldn’t have let you go. It was my fault, not yours. But Livie I still love you. I’ll always love you more than anything. You’re mine and you will always be. I’m not walking away, not anymore. I thought I could once I saw you open your eyes and I would be able to look into them one last time…but fuck it, I can’t leave you.”
    She opened her mouth to speak but I shook her off.
    “But if you want me to stay Liv, I can’t promise you that I’ll be the man you’re looking at right now. Once your gone, I’m going to fucking lose it. I know I am. That can mean a lot of shit and none of it is good. Livie, I will always love you but when you get back, I’m not going to be the same and I’m not going to be good.”
    She hooked her good arm around the back of my neck pressing my forehead to hers. “I don’t care Ocean, just as long as you don’t leave me.”
    I licked the slight part of her lips and she opened her swollen lips a little more, sucking in a huge breath of air.
    “I love you Liv,” I said as I plunged my tongue into her mouth, pressing her back harder against the bed.
    She moaned into my mouth and I knew this was only going to make our goodbye worse, but she was mine and I still loved her. I still wanted her.
    I heard the door click as it opened, but I didn’t care. All that mattered was the taste of the woman I loved on my tongue and the way she pulled me harder into her, knowing she was hurting like hell.
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    Lawrence
    How the hell did I know I was going to walk in on them making out? Not even a fully, conscious for twenty-four freaking hours and