Off to War

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him. I don’t even want to celebrate. I don’t even want a Christmas tree.
    The reason is, it’s hard to have fun when at that same moment he might be in the middle of a battle. I could be laughing and singing and right at that moment, he could be getting shot or bombed, or maybe he’s hurt or scared. Why should I have fun when he’s not?
    I don’t tell him how I feel because I don’t want him to feel bad and start crying. Once he called when we were having dinner. Mom had cooked all this great Hispanic food and we were stuffing our faces. Dad called and said all he’d had to eat that day was a hot dog. I worry that he’s going to starve to death. We send him Hispanic food that he can cook for himself over there. I hope they let him cook it. He has to eat!
    My dad’s been in the army for eleven years. I was only two when we moved from Puerto Rico. First we lived in Texas, in Fort Hood, where my brother was born. Then we moved to Germany for three years. I didn’t like it there. I remember only two places to eat out, pizza and Burger King, and I don’t like either of those kinds of food. I like rice.
    Germany was really hard for my mother. She didn’t know how to speak either English or German, only Spanish. Mybrother and I were sick all the time in Germany because we weren’t used to the cold. He got a lot of fevers, and I had salmonella and bronchitis. I remember a lot of ear pain. Maybe that’s why I don’t like Germany. Dad spoke English but he was always away on training. He’d be gone for weeks, and Mom was stuck on base with two sick children and no way to get help. So she taught herself English by watching the air force channel on TV. She said it was dull, but it was the only English channel we could get.
    We traveled around a bit, when we weren’t sick, to Italy and around Germany. That was fine. A lot of it was very beautiful, but I think I was too young to appreciate it properly.
    We were in Germany when September 11 happened. The whole base was locked down. Dad had to work for two straight days without a break.
    After Germany, we were sent to Oklahoma. Two weeks after we got there, our house was broken into and our stuff was stolen.
    So we haven’t had it easy. Mom got really sad sometimes. She said she missed Puerto Rico, she missed her old life, and her new life was too hard and lonely. She said there were times when she just wanted to jump out the window, but she’d never do that because she loves us too much. She doesn’t handle it well when Dad’s gone. I know she misses him, and she doesn’t like all the moving.
    My brother and I, when we move, wherever we move to, there’s always school, so we can get on with our lives, but it’s not so easy for Mom. In Oklahoma she worked as a teacher’s assistant for special ed kids, but here in North Carolina there are no jobs for her.
    We’ve been here about a year, since Dad is stationed in Fort Bragg when he’s not overseas. We don’t live on post, although we go there to do our shopping at the commissary and go tomovies since we get military discount. Mom bought a house for us that Dad hasn’t seen yet. She wants him to come home on leave so he can say she’s made a good choice. She knows she has, but it’s a big decision, buying a house, and she’d like him to like it.
    I saw her crying the other day. She tried to hide it from me, but I saw. I know she’s having problems with the army around getting Dad’s pay. There are some forms that need fixing, I don’t know what, exactly, but it worries her because she doesn’t know where to go to get help. Maybe that’s why she was crying.
    My little brother sometimes gets into these crying spells where he just cries and cries until he gets drained of all his tears. He’ll climb into my lap and say, “I miss Daddy,” and “I want Daddy back!” I tell him it

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