the price.
Kebar was a big Springsteen fan, “The Price You
Pay” unreeling in his head like a dodgy old 45.
And get this, when you have the out-on-the-
precipice dementia, there’s going to be oddities
thrown into the maelstrom.
Emily Dickinson, not the first name you’d have put
in this cauldron but logic hadn’t a whole lot of
validity in this gig And … in German.
He had no idea how that happened but he had a
battered copy of her Guten Morgen, Mitternacht.
And add to the mystery, he could quote from it,
where’d that come from?
Fuck knows.
As he brought the bar down on some skel’s head,
he in canted: “Tod macht die Saiten krumm—
Night meine Schuld.” “… Death twists the strings
— ‘Twasn’t my fault.” And his mantra:
uEinfremder Stamm, allein—”
… Wrecked, solitary, here— He fucking loved
that.
When he would finally stagger back to his crap
one-room apartment in Queens, he’d throw up the
food he’d bought, pour a lethal shot of Stoli,
thinking,
“Mellow on down.”
He’d drag his battered suitcase from under the bed,
flip it open, and his stone face would nearly smile.
His pride and joy.
Weapons.
Glock, Beretta, snub-nosed .22, and the beauty, the
Smith & Wesson .44 Magnum.
Serious firepower.
He loved that elephant, the wood grip, the sheer
weight in your hand, you hit a freak with that, he
wasn’t never getting up again.
He’d put Bruce on the turntable, “Thunder Road,”
“State Trooper,” “Stolen Car,” and he was wired.
The Magnum in his right hand, the thought of eating
the barrel occurring more and more.
One squeeze, no more crap.
Late on a Friday, Deadwood on the box, he had the
piece to his mouth when his door received a bang.
Holding the weapon loosely by his side, he opened
it.
Morronni, a box of pizza and a bottle of merlot,
said,
“Beware of goons bearing gifts, right?” He glanced
down at the Magnum, asked, “You expecting
company or just riled up?” He moved past Kebar,
said,
“Deadwood, love it, since Brian Cox joined, it’s
moved up a notch, you think?” He tossed the box
on the table, asked, “So, you got any wineglasses?”
Kebar got a mug, none too clean, said, “Knock
yourself out.”
Morronni used his silk handkerchief to clean it,
poured a measure, looked at the Stoli bottle, said,
“Whatever gets you there, am I right?” Kebar
stayed standing, swaying actually, and asked, “The
fuck you want?”
Morronni pretended offense, then smiled, a
predator’s one, said, “It’s payday, my man.”
Tossed a fat envelope on the counter, said, “A
little extra this time as we have a favor to ask.”
Kebar didn’t touch the thing, asked, “And that’d
be?”
“We got a shipment coming in Friday, need to
know if the narcs know.” Kebar nodded and
Morronni asked, “You’re good to go on that?”
Kebar gave a bitter chuckle, said, “What you pay
me for, right?”
Morroni opened the pizza box, tore off a hefty
slice, stuffed his face, then midbite said,
“Slight problem has come up.”
Kebar was having double vision, would he have to
shoot the two Morronnis he was seeing, asked,
“Yeah, what’s that?”
“Your kid, the Mick cop, he did a real number on
my boy Gino.”
Kebar was delighted, Jesus, that kid, said,
“And?”
Morronni was looking in disgust at his white shirt,
a dab of sauce had landed there and he seemed
pissed, said,
“Fucking hate when that happens, oh yeah, your
boy, he’s going to have to make restitution.”
“What did you have in mind?” Morronni debated
another wedge and decided against it, said, “I’ll
think of something.” Kebar had to know, asked,
“And if he doesn’t?” Morronni stood up brushing
crumbs from his suit, said,
“Then it goes on you.”
Kebar thought of the firepower he had so very
close to hand and for one brief mad moment he
considered blowing the scumbag to hell and gone,
but then what of