wondering what it was like to be part of all that chanting and singing, with all those men in hats.
In the graveyard I found what I knew I would find. The old woman was there, seated next to a stone bearing his name. And she was talking, talking, talking, touching the stone, talking to the stone.
And he? What else? Was not listening.
I waited, heard, shut my eyes and backed away.
With the sun gone and fog coming in with night I passed the bench. It was still empty, which made it worse.
So what can you do?
I called Sid.
âAbout that tape recorder of yours?â I said. âAnd some of those tapes?â
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On one of the last nights of summer, Sid and I took our usual stroll down the kosher esplanade, passing the fine pastrami and cheesecake emporiums, stopped for some of that and walked on near the two dozen benches by the sea, talking and greatly contented, when Sid suddenly remarked, âYou know, I have often wonderedââ
âWhatâs to wonder?â I said, for he was looking ahead at that bench, which had stayed empty for almost a week.
âLook.â Sid touched my arm. âThat old woman?â
âYes?â
âSheâs back! I thought she was sick or something, but there she is.â
âI know,â I smiled.
âSince when ? The same bench. And talking like crazy.â
âYes,â I said, and we walked closer.
âBut,â said Sid as quiet as he could, âthereâs no one there. Sheâs talking to herself .â
âAlmost,â I said. We were very close. âListen.â
âYou give me the same smarts. Arguments, who needs?â the old woman was saying, leaning forward toward the empty half of the bench, eyes fiery, face intense, mouth in full motion. âArguments, who needs? I got plenty. Listen!â
And then, even more astonishing: a reply.
âGive a listen, she says!â a voice cried. âFor what, how come ?â
âThat voice!â Sid exclaimed, then whispered. â His voice. But heâs dead !â
âYes,â I said.
âAnd another thing,â the old woman said, âlook how you eat. Sometime, watch! â
âEasy for you to say!â the old manâs voice shot back.
âGo ahead, say! â
There was a click. Sidâs eyes slid down. He saw what I saw, his borrowed small handheld recorder in the old womanâs palm.
âAnd another thing,â she said, alive.
Click .
âWhy do I put up with this?â his voice cried, dead.
Click .
âI got lists you wouldnât believe!â she cried, alive.
Sid glanced at me. âYou?â he said.
âMe,â I said.
âHow?â Sid said.
âI had your tapes from all those nights,â I said. âI cut them together, him talking, and put spaces between for her to yell back. Some places he just yells, no answer. Or she can click him off so she can yell, then click him back on.â
âHow did you knowâ?â
âShe was in the graveyard,â I said. âI couldnât stand it. Her just talking to that cold piece of marble and no answers. So I recopied your tapes, just his raves and yells, and one late afternoon looking into the graveyard I saw that yes, she was there and might be there forever and starve and die being there. No answers. But there had to be, even if you donât listen or think you donât, so I just walked in by the grave, turned on the tape, handed it to her where she sat by the stone, made sure he was yelling, and walked away. I didnât look back or wait to hear if she yelled, too. Him and her, her and him, high and low, low and high, I just left.
âLast night she was back here on the bench, eating some cheesecake. I think sheâs going to live. Isnât that swell?â
Sid listened. The old man was complaining. âWhy do I put up with this? Someone tell me! Iâm waiting. So?â
âOkay, smartie,â
Mark Twain, Sir Thomas Malory, Lord Alfred Tennyson, Maude Radford Warren, Sir James Knowles, Maplewood Books