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will be all right, don’t worry.” So she thought she would just sit up with some of the players and go home by morning. You cannot sleep on a landing all the time.
    But as soon as she undressed and lay down in a bedroom by herself, her door opened and a guy came in, strictly naked, and jumped on her. She fought with him, even if he was a soccer player, and finally she jumped out of bed and stood by an open window. It was moonlight outside and she was standing, trembling by a large fourth-floor window, and she said, “One step closer and I jump.” At that moment she really thought she would jump through the window rather than submit to that man. And maybe she screamed. Because other soccer players walked in and dragged him out. She was shaking badly, but they said, “Don’t worry, nothing’s going to happen.”
    On nights when she got back only five or ten minutes late, Alexander would open the door for her, but any more than that—well, she didn’t want to have to listen to all their crap. Maybe she slept on the landing ten times. She had to hope no cleaning lady would see her; it would even be embarrassing for her family that they were treating her so badly. On such nights she would just sit on the stairs; she couldn’t sleep. Or she would go to stay with Irina.
    It was a lazy summer until Irina’s mother talked to her in hard words. This mother ran a pawnshop and sometimes, since she was not working, Marina would spend a day with her, and young boys might come and pawn things and flirt, and maybe she would make a date with them and go out to a restaurant and get a meal, and then come back to Irina’s house and sleep with Irina in her bed. This went on—she doesn’t know, a month? Two weeks? Two months? Whatever. One day, Irina’s mother took Marina into her kitchen and said, “My husband died during the war and I was left with two children. I had to work to support them. I don’t mind giving you shelter for a little while; I know you have hardship at home. But to continue this way, to eat at my home and take advantage of me—no, go find some work. You’re welcome here, but not for freeloading.” Marina turned red; it was true. She apologized—and she never stayed there again.
    It was a dose of strong medicine, but this woman really did her a favor. Because it happened after Marina had been thrown out of pharmacy school. She hadn’t been attending classes. Plus, she felt sick. She supposed it was a vitamin deficiency or something. She had shingles; she still has scars from those big boils all over her head and body. She had to go to a clinic called Place for Curing of Contagious and Venereal Diseases, and she used to wait in line for her medicine and hear everyone whispering, “So young!” and Marina realized they thought she had VD. Actually, she had to take lamp treatments and glucose and vitamin shots. She was terribly undernourished. And she never had VD, of course not, but it was painful that people thought so.
    Over a year before that, before most of the trouble with her stepfather, there had been one boy she actually fell in love with. She was sixteen and visiting Minsk just for the summer, two years before she went there to live; she met a boy named Vladimir Kruglov. Since every window was open in Valya’s apartment because of the heat, Marina could hear Kruglov playing a guitar upstairs. Marina heard from Valya that Vladimir, who was a student at Leningrad University, was lonesome in Minsk. He was older than her, but since he was always playing his guitar, Marina thought he was serenading her. She fell in love.
    One night she and Vladimir got tickets for a movie, and when they came out, it was pouring rain, and Vladimir said, “I have a friend who lives near here,” so they went to that apartment and dried themselves with towels and sat together and that became the first time she was kissed. First time in her life. She started crying. She was only sixteen, and Vladimir Kruglov said,