lot.â
âSorry.â
âHe stares at me sometimes like heâs waiting for something.â
âHe likes it when you talk to him.â
âDo you ever give him treats?â
âSometimes. I give him people food sometimes.â
âThatâs terrible for dogs, you know. Itâs bad for their hearts.â
âI know.â
âHave you taken him to the vet for his annual? You should make sure heâs got all his shots.â
âYeah, I gotta do that.â
Natalie is silent for a moment, as if sheâs working something out in her head. âWhen did you get this dog again? I donât remember when you got the dog.â The way she asks me, it sounds like she already knows the answer, like sheâs not concerned about the shots but something else.
âI donât know.â
âNo?â
I think about it for a moment. âHeâs been with me for a while, I donât know the exact date.â
âWell thatâs okay if you canât remember.â
âDid you hear back from the CAT-scan people yet?â I ask.
âTheyâll call you soon. Are you still feeling funny?â
âNo change, really.â
âHm.â
âWhatâs that?â
âNothing.â
âNo, that noise you made. Hm. You said hm . Whyâd you say that?â
âIt was a nothing noise. It meant nothing.â
âAre you sure?â
âIâm sure,â she says.
âOkay.â
âAre you sure youâre not in a tunnel?â
âNo tunnel. Listen, Iâll be home soon. Iâll call you later. Say hi to Zero for me.â
I quickly hang up before she can say anything because I donât like the six-stage good-byes: talk to you soon, have a good night,take it easy, good night, bye, good-bye. A Buddhist friend of mine from college never said good-bye to anyone because he believed that saying it meant saying good-bye to their spirit. He was always ending phone conversations abruptly or leaving unexpectedly. You only say good-bye when someone dies, he told me, so their spirit can leave and be at peace.
chapter 20
My feet are tired and my body achy from all the walking in this cooler, damp weather. The hotelâs front lobby isnât much warmer, and neither is the woman behind the front desk, although she is terribly apologetic.
âSorry?â she says, or asks, Iâm not sure which. Sheâs a short little pear of a thing, with three perfect wrinkle lines running parallel across her forehead. âSorry?â she says again, tilting her head at strange angles toward me. I realize Iâm not speaking loud enough, and thatâs her way of asking me to increase my volume.
âIf I wanted to send a postcard to someone,â I ask, louder, âhow would I do that?â
âYou can leave it right here with us at the front desk,â she says, and smiles. The three lines smooth away, revealing a broad, velvety forehead. Her skin is like some exotic fruit, ready to be eaten. I think Iâm hungry from all my exercise.
âLeave it right here?â I ask.
âYes, thatâs correct, sir. We take the post out twice daily.â
Tucked away on the back counter is a basket filled with letters. They look like theyâve been there awhile. âSo where does it go from here?â
âSorry?â
âWhere,â I say even louder, âdoes it go from here?â
âI can hear you, sir, I just donât understand your question.â
âI mean, does it go to a post office?â
Her smile remains constant, her voice pleasant and professional. I really like her demeanor. She reminds me of Gerald, the postmaster back home.
âRight, sir, it goes through the Royal Mail.â
The Royal Mail. That sounds serious. Trustworthy. A place to get answers. âAnd where would I find a Royal Mail office?â
The three little lines on her forehead return, darker than