remember about the Free Walkers?â
She stood slowly, and joined me at the counter. âWhy do you want to know? Have they approached you?â
To spare us both from a lie, I didnât answer.
âI see.â She nudged me out of the way and started assembling a tray: spoons, cups, milk, and sugar. âGil was working with them long before we met. The Consort had assigned him to investigate the pivots stemming from the crash. You know how rigid the Consort is about Walkers and Originals mingling. He would never have asked me out if he hadnât been a Free Walker.â
She chuckled, the sound rueful. âSimon got his charm from his father, you know.â
âWhat did you say when he told you the truth? Or did you catch him Walking?â The way Simon had caught me.
âHe told me. He had to, really. I knew he was keeping something backâI was only getting a fraction of him, and Iwanted the whole. So I broke it off, and he told me everything.â
âDid you think he was crazy?â
âAt first.â She ran a finger over her wedding band. âEventually I believed him, and when he explained about the Free Walkers, I believed in them, too. They were so dedicated, and passionate . . . it was impossible not to be swept up in it. I helped, you know. I wasnât just the girl on the sidelines.â
I must have looked puzzled, because she laughed. âHow do you think you ended up with pivots all over your house, Del?â
âThat was you?â Walker houses didnât typically have a lot of pivots, but ours did. Iâd always assumed it was due to the fact that it was oldâplenty of repairmen had passed through our doors, and their choices littered the house, same as their cigarette stubs and Styrofoam coffee cups.
âDid you think Gil was only interested in my looks?â She smiled. âI believed in the Free Walkersâ cause. Forming pivots in housesâso they could move in and out without the Consort noticingâwas an easy way for me to help.
âAnd then I got pregnant with Simon. It must sound crazy, but we were so happy, despite the danger.â
âBut . . . your Echoes . . . they were pregnant too.â
She folded her hands and met my eyes. âYes.â
âGil couldnât be with them. They were alone.â It seemed selfish, somehow, and irresponsible. Two words Iâd never have used to describe Amelia. âYou were okay with that? Choosing for them?â
âI chose for myself,â she said. âWalkers donât have to weightheir decisions, and neither do most Originals. They donât know that the power of their choices crosses worlds. I loved Gil, and I believed we were building a life together.â
âYour Echoes couldnât. Theyâd be single moms.â
âThey had my memories; they knew Gil, and what Iâd done. They would remember our time together as if it was their own. Having Simon meant they would have a piece of Gil in their lives foreverâthatâs what I gave them, and it was the right thing to do.â
âHow do you know?â
She met my eyes. âBecause itâs what I would have wanted in their place.â
âButââ
âIâm not sorry I did it,â she said, lifting her chin. âNot when the result was Simon.â
âMe neither,â I said softly. The irony was, her Echoesâthe ones who had livedâstill had a Simon. She was the only one who had to grieve.
She dusted off her hands to show the topic was closed. âAnd then, Gil was gone.â
âWhat happened?â I asked, welcoming the change of subject. Iâd heard Ms. Powellâs explanation, but it seemed vital that I hear Ameliaâs version too. The personal cost instead of the political one.
âIâm not sure. In the months before Simon was born, we were making progressâconverting some high-ranking