eavesdropping on them, but eavesdropping was the least of his crimes.
The two in the booth would have other reasons to despise him.
Just as heâd begun to despise himself since heâd been on the run from the FBI.
But Nancy loves me.
He had to hold on to that. Heâd already told Portland General Hospitalâs nurse Nancy Allen about the things heâd done, yet miraculously, she still loved him. She still believed in him.
He had to prove to her that her faith in him wasnât groundless. That there was a reason to love him. So leaving town was no longer an option. He had to own up to his crimes.
Though confident that no one would recognize the well-pressed bean-counter heâd been in his new grunge-guise, Everett walked behind the facades of the booths set up for the fair, where no one could see him. Even before the FBI had begun looking for him, that was how heâd lived most of his lifeâbehind a facade, and distant from other people. Most of the time he blamed himself for that distance, it was his fault he was so shy, his fault he couldnât reach out and let people see who he really was.
Other times he realized that his childhood had forced that role and those ways upon him.
âDaddy!â Through the plywood barriers he could hear a young boyâs voice. âCan we go to the park now? You promised weâd play ball today.â
Play ball.
A familiar scene fluttered through his mind. He used to think it was a fantasy, or something from an old movie or television program that he couldnât remember watching. But now he knew it for what it wasâa memory. A box with crinkly silver paper. More paper inside.And inside that, smelling almost as good as his motherâs flowery perfume, a beautiful leather baseball mitt, just his size.
Can we play ball now, Dad? Can we? Can we?
Heâd loved that mitt. Heâd loved baseball.
But his father had changed. His father had gone from fun and loving to foul-mouthed and stinking of booze. His mother had changed, too. And his home had never been the same.
He had never been the same. Not anything about him.
Now he found himself standing next to a payphone tucked beside one of the seldom-used side exits of Portland General. Digging through his pockets, he found some change, and without giving himself time to think about it, dialed the number. Heâd memorized it from the card the detective had given him when heâd accompanied Nancy to the police station a few weeks before. Then, heâd tried to deflect her warnings about the possibility of a kidnapping ring by telling Detective Levine that the nurse was tired and overworked. Heâd tried to give the police officer the impression that she was imagining things.
Now he was determined to confirm the truth of what Nancy had said. With the ringleader of their group, Charlie Prescott, found by the FBI and shot dead, Everett thought it was finally safe to do so.
âDetective Levine,â a voice said over the phone.
He thought of all the people heâd hurt. He thought of all he had to regret.
âHello? Is anyone there?â The detective sounded impatient.
He thought of Nancy. Nancy and his mother and fatherâthe way theyâd been at first. âHello, Detective,â he said. âWeâve spoken before. About a possible kidnapping ring.â
âWho is this?â the detective barked out.
âThis isââ He hesitated, then forced out the words. âThis is Everett Baker. I know you and the FBI have been looking for me and Iâd like to come in. I have information that you need to hear.â
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