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Authors: Emma Donoghue
except at the edge of Rug, she gets curled up under his wheels. Remote is the boss, he says, “Off you go now, you slowcoach Jeep. Twice
around that Table leg, lickety-split. Keep those wheels turning.” Sometimes Jeep is tired, Remote turns his wheels grrrrrrrrr. That naughty Jeep hides in Wardrobe but Remote finds him
by magic and makes him zoom back and forward crashing into the slats.
Tuesdays and Fridays always smell of vinegar. Ma’s scrubbing under Table with the rag that used to be one of my diapers I wore till I was one. I bet she’s wiping Spider’s web
away but I don’t care much. Then she picks up Vacuum who makes it all noisy dusty wab wab wab.
Jeep sneaks way off in Under Bed. “Come back, my little baby Jeepy,” says Remote. “If you become a fish in the river, I will be a fisherman and catch you in my net.” But
that tricksy Jeep stays quiet till Remote is having a nap with his antenna all the way down, then Jeep sneaks up behind him and takes out his batteries ha ha ha.
I play with Jeep and Remote all day except when I’m in Bath they have to park on Table not to get rusty. When we do Scream I push them up really near Skylight and Jeep vrums his
wheels as loud as he can.
Ma lies down again holding her teeth. Sometimes she does a big breath out out out.
“Why are you hissing so long?”
“Trying to get on top of it.”
I go sit by her head and stroke her hair out of her eyes, her forehead is slippy. She grabs my hand and holds it tight. “It’s OK.”
It doesn’t look OK. “You want to play with Jeep and Remote and me?”
“Maybe later.”
“If you play you won’t mind and you won’t matter.”
She smiles a bit but the next breath comes out louder like a moan.
At 05:57 I say, “Ma, it’s nearly six,” so she gets up to make dinner but she doesn’t eat any. Jeep and Remote wait in Bath because it’s dry now, it’s their
secret cave. “Actually Jeep died and went to Heaven,” I say, eating my chicken slices really fast.
“Oh, yeah?”
“But then in the night when God was asleep, Jeep snuck out and slid down the Beanstalk to Room to visit me.”
“That was cunning of him.”
I eat three green beans and have a big drink of milk and another three, they go down a bit faster in threes. Five would be fasterer but I can’t manage that, my throat would shut. One time
I was four, Ma wrote Green beans / other froz green veg on the shopping list and I scribbled out Green beans with the orange pencil, she thought it was funny. At the end I have the
soft bread because I like to keep it in my mouth like a cushion. “Thanks, Baby Jesus, especially for the chicken slices,” I say, “and please no more green beans for a long time.
Hey, why do we thank Baby Jesus and not him?”
“Him?”
I nod at Door.
Her face gets flat even though I didn’t say his name. “Why should we thank him?”
“You did the other night, for the groceries and the snow offing and the pants.”
“You shouldn’t listen.” Sometimes when she’s really mad her mouth doesn’t really open. “It was a fake thank.”
“Why it—?”
She butts in. “He’s only the bringer. He doesn’t actually make the wheat grow in the field.”
“Which field?”
“He can’t make the sun shine on it, or the rain fall, or anything.”
“But Ma, bread doesn’t come out of fields.”
She presses on her mouth.
“Why you said—?”
“It must be time for TV,” she says fast.
It’s videos, I love them. Ma does the moves with me most times but not tonight. I jump on Bed and teach Jeep and Remote to shake their booties. It’s Rihanna and T.I. and Lady Gaga
and Kanye West.
“Why do rappers wear shades even in the night,” I ask Ma, “are their eyeballs sore?”
“No, they just want to look cool. And not have fans staring into their faces all the time because they’re so famous.”
I’m confused. “Why the fans are famous?”
“No, the stars are.”
“And they don’t want to
around that Table leg, lickety-split. Keep those wheels turning.” Sometimes Jeep is tired, Remote turns his wheels grrrrrrrrr. That naughty Jeep hides in Wardrobe but Remote finds him
by magic and makes him zoom back and forward crashing into the slats.
Tuesdays and Fridays always smell of vinegar. Ma’s scrubbing under Table with the rag that used to be one of my diapers I wore till I was one. I bet she’s wiping Spider’s web
away but I don’t care much. Then she picks up Vacuum who makes it all noisy dusty wab wab wab.
Jeep sneaks way off in Under Bed. “Come back, my little baby Jeepy,” says Remote. “If you become a fish in the river, I will be a fisherman and catch you in my net.” But
that tricksy Jeep stays quiet till Remote is having a nap with his antenna all the way down, then Jeep sneaks up behind him and takes out his batteries ha ha ha.
I play with Jeep and Remote all day except when I’m in Bath they have to park on Table not to get rusty. When we do Scream I push them up really near Skylight and Jeep vrums his
wheels as loud as he can.
Ma lies down again holding her teeth. Sometimes she does a big breath out out out.
“Why are you hissing so long?”
“Trying to get on top of it.”
I go sit by her head and stroke her hair out of her eyes, her forehead is slippy. She grabs my hand and holds it tight. “It’s OK.”
It doesn’t look OK. “You want to play with Jeep and Remote and me?”
“Maybe later.”
“If you play you won’t mind and you won’t matter.”
She smiles a bit but the next breath comes out louder like a moan.
At 05:57 I say, “Ma, it’s nearly six,” so she gets up to make dinner but she doesn’t eat any. Jeep and Remote wait in Bath because it’s dry now, it’s their
secret cave. “Actually Jeep died and went to Heaven,” I say, eating my chicken slices really fast.
“Oh, yeah?”
“But then in the night when God was asleep, Jeep snuck out and slid down the Beanstalk to Room to visit me.”
“That was cunning of him.”
I eat three green beans and have a big drink of milk and another three, they go down a bit faster in threes. Five would be fasterer but I can’t manage that, my throat would shut. One time
I was four, Ma wrote Green beans / other froz green veg on the shopping list and I scribbled out Green beans with the orange pencil, she thought it was funny. At the end I have the
soft bread because I like to keep it in my mouth like a cushion. “Thanks, Baby Jesus, especially for the chicken slices,” I say, “and please no more green beans for a long time.
Hey, why do we thank Baby Jesus and not him?”
“Him?”
I nod at Door.
Her face gets flat even though I didn’t say his name. “Why should we thank him?”
“You did the other night, for the groceries and the snow offing and the pants.”
“You shouldn’t listen.” Sometimes when she’s really mad her mouth doesn’t really open. “It was a fake thank.”
“Why it—?”
She butts in. “He’s only the bringer. He doesn’t actually make the wheat grow in the field.”
“Which field?”
“He can’t make the sun shine on it, or the rain fall, or anything.”
“But Ma, bread doesn’t come out of fields.”
She presses on her mouth.
“Why you said—?”
“It must be time for TV,” she says fast.
It’s videos, I love them. Ma does the moves with me most times but not tonight. I jump on Bed and teach Jeep and Remote to shake their booties. It’s Rihanna and T.I. and Lady Gaga
and Kanye West.
“Why do rappers wear shades even in the night,” I ask Ma, “are their eyeballs sore?”
“No, they just want to look cool. And not have fans staring into their faces all the time because they’re so famous.”
I’m confused. “Why the fans are famous?”
“No, the stars are.”
“And they don’t want to