gone to get his gun.
I donât slow down.
I stopped running a long time ago. The sun was on its way down when I started, and now itâs about four hours closer to the horizon. I do my best to keep it in front of me. Heading due west seems smart. Itâs the easiest direction to follow, headed straight toward the sun, with the cabin at my back. Just as importantly, going west lets me go more downhill than uphill.
The hills here never stop. Itâs up and down and up and down and up and down. I stick to the ravines as much as possible, taking cover in the folds of the mountains. The ravines are a mixture of soft, boggy ground and rocks. My feet took some serious hits in my race away from the cabin, so I pick my way along the mushy spots. Along with the soft ground and the cover, Iâm hoping the ravines take me down to a river, and that river will take me down to a real road. So far itâs nothing but deep wilderness.
Wolfman hasnât shown himself, but I know heâs out there. I canât see him or hear him, but I can feel him. Itâs good news for me that heâs working with a .45 handgun. Heâs going to have to get close to kill me. Iâm not a huge fan of guns, but Caleb and Grandpapa have both tried to teach me about them. Some of it sank in. Not much, but some.
The good news is, just about every other ravine has a clear, little stream waterfalling its way down it. The bad news is, Iâm dizzy with hunger.
Thereâs no food here. No berries, no nuts. I ate a worm I found, but thatâs it.
Food. Itâs taken over my every thought. Food. Food. Food.
Iâm not used to autumn being so cold, but then Iâm not used to being in the mountains, naked. How long can I survive out here? Especially after the sun sets and the cold creeps in? Panic seeps into me, but I recite my goals and feel stronger for it. Only a few minutes later the worry returns. Anxiety and stress are no friends of mine right now. They burn extra calories. Confidence is what I need.
I stop midway down a ravine. For no reason a sense of well-being comes over me.
Something good just happened.
Iâve never had a psychic experience before, and I wonder if thatâs what this is. Itâs not a thought so much as a feeling. Itâs related to Caleb. Even though I have absolutely no evidence to suggest it, I believe Caleb has figured out something important. Heâs called me too many times without me answering. Heâs gettingsuspicious. Heâs calling Becca, calling Mom and Dad. He already believes somethingâs wrong. Now heâs figuring out what.
It might be just the hunger talking, maybe a hallucination brought on by low blood sugar, but I choose to believe itâs real. I choose to let it give me strength and hope.
Coming on toward dusk and I havenât lost faith in my epiphany, but my steps are dragging now. Iâm hurting. Iâm hurting bad. I canât think. I need food.
The moment the sun dips behind the hills I can feel the temperature drop.
My current ravine broadens into a little meadow. I come around a bend, and the meadow expands into a wide-open field. Thereâs a big oak in the center, and beneath that big oak there is a wooden tub.
I know exactly what that wooden tub is. Itâs bear bait. Itâs illegal and a practice I hate. Hunters put out a pile of apples. Bears canât resist it, and it lures them into the open, right into the hunterâs trap. But Iâm thrilled this hunter has put out his illegal bear bait.
Jogging toward the tub, I try not to get too hopeful. Maybe there wonât be any apples. But even then, maybe thereâs a hunting cabin nearby. Maybe Iâm getting close to civilization. But mostly Iâm just hoping for food.
Collapsing next to the tub, I peer inside and see them. Dozens and dozens of apples. Theyâre not even rotten. Soft, but not rotten. The first one goes down in a second. The second