thing.â
Roddy asked:
âDoes she want to make a new will?â
Elinor answered:
âShe didnât say so.â
âWhat did sheâ?â
He stopped in the middle of the question.
Mary Gerrard was running down the stairs. She crossed the hall and disappeared through the door to the kitchen quarters.
Elinor said in a harsh voice:
âYes? What is it you wanted to ask?â
Roddy said vaguely:
âIâwhat? Iâve forgotten what it was.â
He was staring at the door through which Mary Gerrard had gone.
Elinorâs hands closed. She could feel her long, pointed nails biting into the flesh of her palms.
She thought:
âI canât bear itâI canât bear itâ¦itâs not imaginationâ¦itâs true⦠RoddyâRoddy I canât lose youâ¦.â
And she thought:
âWhat did that manâthe doctorâ what did he see in my face upstairs? He saw something⦠Oh, God, how awful life isâto feel as I feel now. Say something, fool. Pull yourself together! â
Aloud she said, in her calm voice:
âAbout meals, Roddy. Iâm not very hungry. Iâll sit with Aunt Laura and the nurses can both come down.â
Roddy said in alarm:
âAnd have dinner with me? â
Elinor said coldly:
âThey wonât bite you!â
âBut what about you? You must have something. Why donât we dine first, and let them come down afterwards?â
Elinor said:
âNo, the other wayâs better.â She added wildly, âTheyâre so touchy, you know.â
She thought:
âI canât sit through a meal with himâaloneâtalkingâbehaving as usualâ¦.â
She said impatiently:
âOh, do let me arrange things my own way!â
Four
I t was no mere housemaid who wakened Elinor the following morning. It was Mrs. Bishop in person, rustling in her old-fashioned black, and weeping unashamedly.
âOh, Miss Elinor, sheâs goneâ¦.â
âWhat?â
Elinor sat up in bed.
âYour dear aunt. Mrs. Welman. My dear mistress. Passed away in her sleep.â
âAunt Laura? Dead?â
Elinor stared. She seemed unable to take it in.
Mrs. Bishop was weeping now with more abandon.
âTo think of it,â she sobbed. âAfter all these years! Eighteen years Iâve been here. But indeed it doesnât seem like itâ¦.â
Elinor said slowly:
âSo Aunt Laura died in her sleepâquite peacefully⦠What a blessing for her!â
Mrs. Bishop wept.
âSo sudden. The doctor saying heâd call again this morning and everything just as usual.â
Elinor said rather sharply:
âIt wasnât exactly sudden. After all, sheâs been ill for some time. Iâm just so thankful sheâs been spared more suffering.â
Mrs. Bishop said tearfully that there was indeed that to be thankful for. She added:
âWhoâll tell Mr. Roderick?â
Elinor said:
âI will.â
She threw on a dressing gown and went along to his door and tapped. His voice answered, saying, âCome in.â
She entered.
âAunt Lauraâs dead, Roddy. She died in her sleep.â
Roddy, sitting up in bed, drew a deep sigh.
âPoor dear Aunt Laura! Thank God for it, I say. I couldnât have borne to see her go on lingering in the state she was yesterday.â
Elinor said mechanically:
âI didnât know youâd seen her?â
He nodded rather shamefacedly.
âThe truth is, Elinor, I felt the most awful coward, because Iâd funked it! I went along there yesterday evening. The nurse, the fat one, left the room for somethingâwent down with a hot-water bottle, I thinkâand I slipped in. She didnât know I was there, of course. I just stood a bit and looked at her. Then, when I heard Mrs. Gamp stumping up the stairs again, I slipped away. But it wasâpretty terrible!â
Elinor nodded.
âYes, it