that could spark memories of the departed Characters.
I comb through the shelves and closet, though Iâm certain I donât have anything of Belleâs. I get down on the floor and peer under the bed, discovering a turquoise ring that went missing a few weeks ago. I drop it into my largely empty jewelry box. Searching for reminders soothes me. Slowly, todayâs events are making sense. Except for her age and the fact that I knew her, thereâs nothing out of the ordinary about Belleâs cut, really.
She is a Clause 53, Item A, cut, like most Patriots. Item BâRisk to the Showâcuts are for Characters who crisp, or break the fourth wall in a particularly egregious way. Thereâs only been one in my lifetimeâLynne Thrush, who lost it at her sonâs Double A ceremony, complaining that Media1 played favorites in assigning. I wasnât thereâthe Double A is a Special Event, and attendance is optional, though encouraged. Lia had gone, of courseâthere arenât many Special Events she missesâand had later told me how the Authority rushed in out of nowhere and seized Lynne while she ranted.
Itâs only when Characters are getting cut that the Authority interact with us. Iâve heard the Authority are Sectors military or maybe ex-military, hired by Media1 to maintain the peace. Theyâre like police for the Reals and mostly deal with them. Except when it comes to Patriots.
Sometimes I wonder why the Reals donât send crickets to escort the Patriots, instead of big men with guns. Iâve never heard of anyone resisting. Why would they? Becoming a Patriot is in the Contract.
âRawls was running laps.â I hear Lia outside now, her voice soaring over the sound of Momâs cooking. I go to the window behind my desk and peek out at the Herronsâ porch. Below me, Lia and Callen are standing next to the porch swing, facing each other.
âSo?â Callen backs away from her, raking his hand through his hair. The equivalent of a full-blown temper tantrum for him.
âSo, donât you have to stay in shape too?â she says, scowling. She takes a step forward, and he moves back farther, trapping himself in the corner of the porch.
âI donât understand why you care so much,â he grumbles.
âWeâre
so
close to the Apprenticeship Announcement,â she sighs. She kisses him on the cheek, her hair concealing the point of contact from me, like a stage curtain. Liaâs
liberato
outfit looks so much better than mine. Her short-sleeved white blouse with little flowers embroidered at the collar is tucked into her tight fawn-colored skirt, which stops right above her knees. Sheâs wearing her chunky clogs, which put her a head above Callen.
Their voices get lower, unintelligible. I back away from the window and sit on my bed, pushing off my sneakers with my feet. Five months ago, I was sitting here while Lia was at my desk saying she thought Callen was a possibility.
I think thatâs how she phrased it too.
A possibility.
Sheâd used the same word when casting last semesterâs Drama Club play. She ticked off Callenâs good qualities one by one, as if she were contemplating an expensive purchase.
Excellent at baseball. Nice hair. Sometimes funny.
Sheâd even fralled something like,
Probably good for my ratings too.
I remember watching her and thinking,
Maybe I should say something.
But then, in the next moment,
Whatâs there to say? I have feelings that are going nowhere?
I tried to convince myself it wasnât that bad. Lia had dated and dropped a series of boys after Martin. I assumed her relationship with Callen would be the same, measured in days rather than months.
Four and a half agonizing months.
The worst part is that, even after spending so much time with him, she still doesnât know him. Not the way I do. Maybe that just comes with the territory of being obsessed, or maybe Iâm