Sekhmet's Curse (Pearl Vampire Chronicles) by Dara Nelson Read Free Book Online Page A

surprised if you were able to suppress it for a long time :   Months, maybe even years.”
    “And this hunger, it’s only going to get worse?  It’s only going to get stronger?”
    “Yes.”
    “Why haven’t I noticed it before now?”
    “Probably because we haven’t had to hunt except for that one time , a nd probably because our lives have been so hectic and chaotic.  You just never had time to notice.”
    “You should have told me, Matt.”
    “I know.  And I’m sorry.”
    “You should have told me, but I’m glad you didn’t ,   b ecause I probably wouldn’t have had the guts to go through with the change.  And I’m so happy with my life now.  I never would have had this.  I never would have had both of you.  So thank you for lying to me, but don ’ t you ever fucking do it again.”
    “Are you kidding?  Never would have had both of us? As horny as you were as a human?   You would have had both of us, eventually,” Carlos grinned.
    “Oh shut up,” I smiled.  He still always knew how to make me smile.  I stood up, “Let’s go to bed.  I’m exhausted.”  I started heading toward the bedroom, but stopped when Carlos pulled back on my hand.  He wasn’t moving.  But I refused to let go of his hand.  “Hun, I’m going to sleep in my own bed tonight, okay?” he whispered.
    “What?  No.  No, that’s not okay.  Not tonight.  Not yet,” I said.
    “Sarah.  This is how it has to be when we’re here.  You know that.  We have to get used to that.  Don’t worry, I’ll be fine.  And you know where to find me if you need me.”  I completely missed the look that passed between Matt and Carlos when he said this.  But they seemed to know that I was going to have problems and that I would be needing one, or both, or them during the night. 
    “But, but, but what if I’m not ?  Why does it have to be like this?  Why can’t we just sleep in the same bed? ” I said, knowing it was a ridiculous questions but I had to ask it anyways.  Carlos cleared his throat then imitated our voices, “’Good night, Sarah, good night, Matt, good night, Carlos… snore.snore , sleep, sleep, middle of the night hard on, um, excuse me Matt but could you go out in the hall for a bit while I bang my wife? Sure, no problem, Carlos,’ Sarah, you know that this isn’t that kind of arrangement.  I think we all agree that this feels like two separate marriages that just happen to be with the same woman.  I’ve had three-somes before, many times , but to do that with this feels like it would, I don’t know, disrespect what this is.  You’ll come to me when you need me, I’ll come to you when I need you.  Where you lay your head tonight to fall asleep won’t change that.”
    I knew he was right but I still opened my mouth to protest again , but Carlos cradled my face in his hands and kissed me.  Long and passionate and filled with love was what this kiss was.  It warmed me.  It filled me up.  It gave me strength.  When he finally pulled away, I knew deep in my heart that he was right.  “Sleep well, my love,” he whispered.  I nodded and tried to smile, but my heart was breaking inside.  “I love you,” I whispered as he turned and walked into his room.  Matt wrapped his arms tight around me to comfort me.  I turned, walked into the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed.  I tried not to show it, but I was lost right now.  “It’s not supposed to be me,” I whispered.  Matt sat next to me on the bed and silently waited.  I fell back, with my hand over my eyes.  “It’s not supposed to be me that can’t handle this.  It’s supposed to be one of you.  But I don’t feel complete unless you’re both with me.  I feel broken.  I don’t know if I can do this Matt.”
    He leaned back on one elbow and gently pulled my hand from my eyes.  He smiled and traced his finger down my cheek.  “Of course you can, Sarah.  The way you’re feeling right now, the hurt you’re