against her back, he said firmly into her ear, âItâs time to go home. Itâs late. Momâs going to wonder where you are, and I have to get on the road, remember?â
âNot tonight, Daddy. Please. Canât you stay tonight?â
âNot tonight.â
â Da-addy! â she whined.
â Diddle-Di-iddle! â he whined right back. âI told you that before. Donât you remember?â
Remember . . . what was she supposed to remember?
There was something . . . a memory swooped close enough to touch and then swung up and away, and she couldnât catch it. She couldnât . . .
Or maybe you donât want to.
âCome on. If we go now, I can tuck you in and read you a quick story before I go. But no Mother Goose.â
That was fine with her. All the nursery rhymes in that book were much too short.
âHow about Tikki Tikki Tembo ?â she asked.
âNopeâthatâs not a quick story!â
That was the point. But it was just as well he didnât want to read it to her again. The last time he read it, the book had given her nightmares about falling down a wellâthe one on their own property, which Daddy had once proudly told her had been hand-dug a hundred years ago by an early settler somewhere back in his family tree.
There were tens of thousands of those old wells dotting the prairie, dug by homesteaders on their claims a hundred years ago, he told her.
Theirs was covered by a heavy wooden lid. One day, as Daddy was taking a break from working outside to roll her around in the wheelbarrow, she asked him if they could look inside the well.
âWhy?â
âI want to see what it looks like.â
âThereâs not much to see. I filled in most of it years ago,â he told her. âItâs the law. But itâs still pretty deep, so you stay away from it.â
âHow deep?â
âSix, maybe eight feet. See?â He held a flashlight and she leaned forward in the wheelbarrow and peered over the edge, breathing the dank smell of earth. There were worms, she remembered, and then a big shiny black spider crawled toward the opening, and she screamed and made him close it back up again.
âThat was a black widow,â he told her. âTheyâre poisonous. You donât want to get bit by one of those.â
âWhat would happen? Would I die?â
âYou might. At the very least, youâd have terrible pain, starting about a half hour after the bite, and your muscles would begin cramping as the venom enters the bloodstream and attacks the nervous system. After a few hours, if you didnât get help, your blood pressure would go up and youâd have trouble breathing, probably convulsionsââ
âDaddy, stop! I donât want to hear any more!â Why did he always have to give her such complicated responses to basic questions?
âWhy not? Iâm teaching you about black widows. Theyâre fascinating.â
âIâm afraid of them.â
âWell, you donât have to worry about them at all if you donât go near the well. Theyâre nocturnal creatures. They like it down there in the damp dark hollow. Make sure you stay away.â
âDonât worry. I will.â
In the nightmare, she was walking along on a summer afternoon through the high grass in the open field way out behind the house. The cover must have been left off the well, and she was swallowed up and trapped there, alone in the dark with the big spider, lots of spiders . . .
Her mother must have told her father that sheâd been waking up screaming in the night, because the next time she saw him, he had a present for her.
âWhat is it?â she asked, trying to mask her disappointment. Sheâd been hinting that she wanted a new set of furniture for her Barbie house, and instead she got . . .
Some kind of contraption made out of sticks,