(Shadowmarch #1) Shadowmarch by Tad Williams Read Free Book Online Page B

curse, after all, or at least so his mother had once told him: “You dream too much, child. Our kind, we make our way with strong backs and closed mouths.” Strange, because the tales she had told to him and his sisters in the long evenings, as the single small fire burned down, had always been about clever young men defeating cruel giants or witches and winning the king’s daughter. But in the light of day she had instructed her children, “You will make the gods angry if you ask for too much.”
    His Vuttish father had been more understanding, at least sometimes. “Remember, I had to come far to find you,” he liked to tell Vansen’s mother. “Far from those cold, windy rocks in the middle of the sea to this fine place. Sometimes a man must reach out for more.”
    The younger Ferras hadn’t completely agreed with the old man, certainly not about the place itself—their croft in the hills’ dank green shadows, where water seemed to drip from the trees more than half the year, was to him a place to be escaped instead of a destination—but it was nice to hear his father, a onetime sailor who by habit or blood was a man of very few words, talk of something other than a chore young Ferras had forgotten to do.
    And now it seemed Vansen had at last proved his mother wrong, for he had come to the city with nothing, and yet here he was, captain of the Southmarch royal guard, with the north’s greatest stronghold spread before him and the safety of its ruling family his responsibility. Anyone would be proud of such an achievement, even men born to a much higher station.
    But in his heart Ferras Vansen knew his mother had been right. He still dreamed too much, and—what was worse and far more shameful—he dreamed of the wrong things.
     
    “He’s like a hawk, that one,” a soldier at the residence guardhouse said quietly to his companion as Vansen walked away, but not so quietly that Vansen didn’t hear. “You don’t ever want to rest for a moment because he’ll just drop down on you, sudden-like.” Vansen hadn’t even punished them when he found them with their armor off, playing dice, but he had made his anger bitingly clear.
    Vansen turned back. The two guardsmen looked up, guilty and resentful. “Next time it might be Lord Brone instead of me, and you might be on your way to the stronghold in chains. Think about that, my lads.” There was no whispering this time when he went out.
    “They can like you or they can fear you,” his old captain Donal Murroy had always said, and even in his last years Murroy had not hesitated to use his knobby knuckles or the flat of his hand to reinforce that fear in a soldier who was insolent or just too slow in his obedience. Vansen had hoped when he was promoted to Murroy’s place that he could substitute respect for fear, but after nearly a year he was beginning to think the old Connordman had been right. Most of the guards were too young to have known anything except peace. They found it hard to believe that a day might come when stealing a nap on duty or wandering away from their posts might have fatal consequences for themselves or the people they protected.
    Sometimes it was hard for Vansen himself to believe it. There were days here on the edge of the world, in a little kingdom bounded by misty, ill-omened mountains in the north and the ocean almost everywhere else, where it seemed like nothing would ever change but the wind and weather, and those would only be the familiar small changes—from wet to slightly less wet and then back to wet again, from swirling breeze to stiff gale—that so wearied the inhabitants of this small stone in the shallows of the sea.
     
    Southmarch Castle was ringed by three walls: the huge, smooth outwall of gray-white southern granite that circled the mount and whose foundations in many places were actually beneath the waters of Brenn’s Bay, a skirt of fitted stone which, along with the bay itself, made the little sometimes-island