If Marta Schuster had been thinking clearly, sheâd deposited the grief-stricken young man away from public scrutiny.
âWeâre through in there,â she was telling Lacey, who nodded numbly in response. Marta gave me the thousand-yard stare when I leaned against the wall, waiting for Lacey to give me the word to enter.
âLily Bard,â Marta said.
âSheriff.â
âYouâre here for what reason?â Marta asked, her eyebrows going up. Her expression, as I perceived it, was disdainful.
âI asked Lily,â Lacey said. Her hands were gripping each other, and as I watched, Lacey drove the nails of her right hand into the skin on the back of her left hand. âLilyâs going to help me clean out my daughterâs apartment,â Lacey went on. Her voice was dull and lifeless.
âOh, she is,â the sheriff said, as though that was somehow significant.
I waited for her to move, and when she got tired of pondering, she stepped aside to let us in. But as I passed her, she tapped my shoulder. While Lacey stood stock still in the living room, I hung back and looked at the sheriff inquiringly.
She peered past me to make sure Lacey was not listening. Then she leaned uncomfortably close and said, âClean out the box under the bed and the bottom drawer of the chest of drawers in the second bedroom.â
I understood after a second, and nodded.
Lacey hadnât registered any of this. As I closed the apartment door behind me, I saw that Lacey was staring around her as though sheâd never seen her daughterâs place before.
She caught my eyes. âI never came up here much,â she said ruefully. âI was so used to my house being âhome,â thatâs where I always felt Deedra belonged. I guess a mother always thinks her child is just playing at being a grown-up.â
Iâd never felt so sorry for anyone. But feeling sorry for Lacey wasnât going to help her. She had plenty of pity available, if she wanted it. What she needed was practical help.
âWhere did you want to start?â I asked. I could hardly march into the bedrooms to start looking for whatever Marta Schuster had wanted me to remove.
âJerrell carried these up earlier,â she said, pointing at the pile of broken-down boxes and two rolls of trash bags. Then she stood silently again.
âDo you want to keep any of Deedraâs things?â I asked, trying to prod her into giving me directions. âFor yourself?â
Lacey forced herself to answer. âSome of the jewelry, maybe,â she said, in a fairly steady voice. âNone of the clothes; she wore a size smaller than I do.â Plus, Lacey Knopp wouldnât be caught dead in her daughterâs just-this-side-of-tarty clothes. âCould you use any of them?â
I took a moment so I wouldnât look like I was rejecting the offer without thinking it over. âNo, Iâm too broad in the shoulders,â I said, which was on a par with Lacey claiming the clothes would be a size small. Then I thought of my bank account and I remembered I needed a winter coat. âIf thereâs a coat or a jacket that fits me, maybe Iâd need that,â I said reluctantly, and Lacey looked almost grateful. âSo, where do you want the rest of the clothes to go?â
âSCC has a clothes closet for the needy,â Lacey said. âI should take them there.â Shakespeare Combined Church was right down the street from the apartment building. It was the busiest church in Shakespeare, at the moment, having just added a new Sunday-school wing.
âWonât that bother you?â
âSeeing some poor woman go around in Deedraâs old clothes?â She hesitated. âNo, I know Deedra would have wanted to help others.â
I was trying to remember someone Deedra had helped (other than by relieving sexual tension) during her life when Lacey added, âAll the kitchen things