now, and I want to make
sure I don’t get pushed away again. I want you to know how I
feel.
I’ve wanted us together for a long time, but
was worried about our friendship. You’ve been my best friend for so
long, I didn’t want anything to happen to that. Now I think our
friendship is strong enough to survive anything we could ever do to
each other in a relationship.
Hearing you had a guy over the other night
crushed me, but I will stand by you if you decide to have a
relationship with him over me.
Always your friend,
I love you.
Rich xx
I’m swooning right now. So sweet.
(Everard was over when he called)
But not sure how I feel about it.
Rich told me all this back in November, but
then he left (after flying in), and I could ignore it, cause he’s
on the other side of the world…
But now he’s coming back.
Chapter 2
WHAT WOMEN WANT TALL BENNY
(ROMANCE NOVEL TALL BENNY)
Friday 30 June 2000
9.06pm
Ever, the other night, asked me to go to movies
with him tonight, then rings me today at 5pm and goes, “Me, Josie,
Mark and Tom want to know if you wanna come to the movies with
us.”
Inside, I was like “HELLO!!!! You asked me
Tuesday, JUST ME!!”
Now the whole Scooby Gang is going.
I pleaded illness and declined.
Then rang Nat and burst into tears. She was
all, “Get another guy, Evvy can’t do this shit. You can’t change
him.”
I don’t WANT to change another guy. I just want
the guy to BE everything I’ve always wanted. I have no right to
change Ever…let him be who he is. It’s just not right for
me.
“ I find myself trying to change you.
If you were meant to be my lover, I wouldn’t have to.” No
Doubt.
So then I went to a card party at
Joy’s.
Yes, we made cards. Somehow, it was fun, and
the most fun I’ve had in awhile.
My card I made looked so special. Phoebe, Joy’s
teenage daughter, rolled about laughing.
“ Like yours is any better!!” I
laughed (hers was some weird looking snowman Christmas
card).
“ Yeah, but mine’s at least not
‘Happy Pink Day’!!!” (oh god, she was in hysterics)
I miss Joy. Before falling down stairs and
being off recovering, she was my number one party friend. She’s
cool at 45. So fun!!! And she always has the best advice for me,
too. She was all, “You’re young and gorgeous, GO DATE LOTS OF
MEN!!”
Think I’m gonna take that advice.
Matt came upstairs at work today, and stopped
to talk to us invoicing girls. He was chatting to Julia about this
dinner he’d cooked, and it sounded so scrumptious I found myself
with that intense longing I seem to get for Matt whenever he steps
anywhere near me. I wanted to be with him SO BAD in that
moment.
Just because he can cook???
Most girls want a guy cause he has money. I
want one to be fed.
Evvy never cooks. I’m not sure he even knows
how to put bread in a toaster. His mummy does it for
him.
And then there’s Benny at work. I kinda already
love Benny. He’s such a great guy and friend. Tall, too…
I mean, he is SO TALL. What women want
tall.
The other day I was leaving work, and Benny was
all, “What’s the go with that sticker on your car,
Pinky?”
(he did not seem happy about it!!)
“ What sticker?” I asked sweetly.
Then my eyelashes got stuck together and I had to use my fingers to
pry them apart.
Benny didn’t even blink. He works with like 20
twenty year old girls. Nothing fazes him. You could insert a tampon
in front of him and he wouldn’t blink. He’s seen it all with us
office girls. “That sticker!!”
He pointed to ‘Guys Wanted: Must be Rich and
Good-looking’ on my VN. “So you’ll only go out with rich or
good-looking guys??”
All huffy like, he was.
(was hot!!)
“ But of course!!” I replied, walking
backwards to my car.
“ But I don’t have any money!!” he
called ADORABLY after me as I got in my car.
“ But you’re good-looking, Benny!!” I
called out my window.
I roared