day with a glossary of coffee terms; Dani had been Theaâs friend since sheâd wrestled a guy to the ground for trying to leave without paying; Claudine, in her thrift-store tank tops and thinning bandannas, offered provocative insight that Thea found fascinating; and Rochelleâshe was still new, but like all of the baristas that Thea hired, she meant well.
Thea supposed she should have known that filling her shop with such good-hearted people would mean they might be up to something, asking to stay late at work. And it wasnât long before she understood the real reason they had decided to get together. Gradually the conversation came around to Thea, and the hints were clear: You seem to be working so much . And What are your plans for when Irinaâs away with her dad? They were worried, all of them, about her.
âAll right, letâs have it,â Thea said. âCome on. Tell me. What do you want to know?â
For a moment, the little group went quiet.
It was Claudine who broke the stalemate. âWell then, for starters, how did you find out about the affair?â she asked, her accent making the word affair sound much more romantic than it was.
âDid you barge in on them?â Jules asked. âCatch them in the act?â
âNo. Ohâno. I didnât walk in on them,â Thea said. But already, her brain was building alternate histories, layering them up like scenes of a filmstrip. She hadnât âwalked in.â But she could haveâmaybe. She saw herself naively opening the door to her bedroom, white sheets, naked legs splayed, Jonathanâs head lifting in surprise, his mouth shiny, the scramble and fumbling as he said, Thea! What are you â
âI did not walk in on anyone.â She pushed the images from her head. Her husbandâsleeping with another woman. She was more repulsed than hurt.
âThen how did you find out?â Lettie asked softly.
âHe told me.â
âJust like that. He told you.â Dani paused, her coffee in the air.
âIs that so hard to believe? He felt guilty. Heâs a good man.â
âBut he told you because you had a suspicion, no?â Claudine asked.
âNo idea at all,â Thea said. âI donât think heâd planned it. It happened so fast.â
âMaybe itâs not serious,â Rochelle said gently. A bit of whipped cream had dotted her chin, and Jules motioned for her to wipe it off.
âRidiculous.â Claudine pursed her lips. âOf course it was serious. Itâs not worth a manâs time to confess a one-night stand.â
âMaybe not to you,â Jules said, and Claudine elbowed him.
âDo you think itâs serious?â Lettie asked, her hand, cold and papery, pressed for a moment on Theaâs arm. âBecause my first husband always said it wasnât serious. But every Thursday night when Iâd go off to orchestra, heâd have a different girl. And a whole bunch of little ânot seriousesâ end up as one steaming heap of serious in my book.â
Thea shook her head. âHe says it didnât mean anything. And I believe him.â
âWhy?â
Thea looked down at her hands. âItâs hard to explain. But I trust him. Even now. If that makes any sense.â
âThea.â Lettieâs voice was gentle. âWere you unhappy?â
Thea felt them looking at her, waiting.
She picked up her own drink, decaf coffee with a splash of milk and mint. She bought time by taking a sip. She and Jonathan had done everything right as husband and wife. There was a lot to love about the lifestyle theyâd built togetherâa good house, a good income, a beautiful daughter. When Thea got an occasional case of the blues or the what-ifs, sheâd written it off as commonplace. What woman didnât doubt her job or her marriage from time to time? âNo, I wasnât unhappy. I donât think I was,