it.
âIt gets a little lonely around here. I mean, Doug and Jack are less than entertaining.â
âI heard music last night,â Lindsay said, choosing her words carefully. âI havenât heard anything like it before.â
âOh man,â Mark said with a laugh. âIsnât that themost awful crap youâve ever heard?â
âYes,â Lindsay agreed, thrilled to know it wasnât Markâs music. âItâs like a song for a bad yoga studio commercial.â
âTotally,â Mark said, really laughing now.
âUgh,â Lindsay said.
She searched for something else to say about it, but her mind was blank. Mark kept looking at her with that amazing smile, and she could tell he wanted her to keep talking, but she didnât have a clue what to say. Looking away from him, hoping that her mind would clear without the distraction of his face, Lindsay looked down at the sand, following its ridges and grooves with her eyes.
Say something , she thought, only she didnât know if she meant it for herself or Mark. It didnât really matter. She simply wanted the uncomfortable silence to pass. When Mark remained silent, she forced herself to say, âSo, if you werenât grounded, what kinds of stuff would you be doing?â
âToday?â Mark said. âIâd probably be surfing. Itâs not a great day for itâonly two-to four-foot swells. I mean, a couple days back when the storm was coming in, they were slamminâ, but itâs kind ofquiet. Still, itâs waves and board. A hell of a lot better than walls and bed.â
âCool,â Lindsay said. âIâd love to learn how to surf.â
âItâs great,â Mark said. âOther than that, I just kind of hang these days. I used to ski and play football and stuff, but thatâs kind of over. Doug and Jack arenât what youâd call athletic types.â
âThey look pretty athletic.â
Mark made a phfft noise with his lips. âThey lift weights and jog, but they arenât into human sports, you know? They arenât out in the world, sharing the slopes and the streets. I mean, thereâs a world full of people, and if you arenât among them, affecting them, enjoying them, you might as well not exist. Itâs a total nonlife, and they embrace it because theyâre afraid.â
âAfraid of what?â Lindsay asked.
âI donât know. Just life,â Mark said. âDoug and Jack want everything to be controlled and perfect, and the only way to get that is to stay away from real people and real life. They donât understand that chaos and control are the fuel mix that keeps the world spinning. Itâs screwed up. Theyâre totally removed. Unfortunately, they decided to remove me, too.â
âAnd thereâs no place else you could go?â she asked.
âNot now,â Mark said. His face grew serious, darkened. âRight now, Iâm trapped.â
âIâm sorry.â
âThanks. Itâs a temporary situation, but it feels like itâs been going on forever.â Markâs face brightened. âBut now Iâve met you. You can visit and keep me company every now and then. I mean, when they arenât home. Theyâd totally freak if they knew we were talking.â
âWell, then we wonât tell them, but maybe Iâll stop by again.â
Markâs mouth spread into a wide, charming grin. The sight of it just erased Lindsayâs cool, and she felt like an excited child. Again she found herself in the middle of a long silence, her mind filled with too many thoughts to pick just one.
âSo where do you go to school?â Mark asked.
âBaker High,â Lindsay said, then realized Mark would have no idea where that was. âItâs in Helensburgh, Pennsylvania.â
âI was in PA a couple of times. Philly mostly. It was
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