Anderson,â he said. âMy long-lost client. Good to see you.â
Martin nodded. He told himself to maintain eye contact with Val (which, he realized, was exactly what he told Peter to do when he was talking to his supposedly scary P.E. teacher, Mr. Richards).
âSo Val,â he said. He talked carefullyâjust like heâd rehearsed to himself earlier at work. âIâve been thinking things over. About the plane runs and everything.â He glanced around, to make sure no one was eavesdropping. âAnd so, yeah. Iâm definitely interested.â
Val raised his eyebrows, and folded his arms. His forearms were tanned and hairy.
âDefinitely interested?â Val asked. âWhat does that mean? That doesnât sound like a yes.â
Martin sighed. âFor Christâs sake,â he said. âWhat do you want me to say? One minute youâre a horse trainer, and the next youâre a fucking dope dealer. Itâs a little confusing.â
âLook,â Val said. He glanced around, then looked right at Martin, his eyes hard and serious. âI know what you mean. But Iâm not a dope dealer. And who cares if I am? Because believe me, this is small time. Iâm small time. Iâm just out to make a few bucksâpay for the horses, pay off the house. You should see some of these guys. Thereâs real money in this, you know. And besides, Iâm just the guy who picks it up and delivers it to the real dealers. They pay me, and then theyâre the ones that get their hands dirty with all the shitbags that buy the stuff. But yeah, if youâre gonna pay me to deliver it, Iâll do it.â
As he talked, Val began to exude that quiet, calm assurance of his. Previously this had been something Martin had liked and admired. It meant Val was a good horse trainer (or suggested it, anyway). Now, though, it seemed like it might mean something different. Martin wasnât sure what was different, exactly, but it was there. It was as if Valhad been wearing a mask, one that was an exact replica of his face, down to the last detail, but a mask just the same. And now that the mask was off, his face (though it looked exactly the same in every detail) . . . well, now it was different somehow.
âSo look,â Val said, finally. âYouâve been ducking me for a while now, which is fine. Itâs a big decision.â
He smiled, but then it faded.
âI think itâs time to decide, Martin,â he said. âWhat do you say?â
Martin felt a second slide by, and then two. But then he nodded, feeling suddenly impatient. âLook,â he said. âIâm here, arenât I? Iâve thought about it. Iâm all set. Count me in. Absolutely.â
Val looked at him for a second, and Martin could tell that he was trying to read him.
âAre you sure?â he asked. âBecause once youâre in, itâs like losing your virginity. You canât go back.â
âVal,â Martin said. âIâm sure. Really. Iâm sure.â
Val stood there for another long moment, then clapped him on the side of the shoulder with his fat right hand. Martin resisted the urge to wince. Val really was a strong guy.
They talked for a while. Or Val talked and Martin listened. But Martinâs mind kept wandering. He posed questions to himself, and answered them just as quickly as they became thoughts. Do I really have the balls to do something like this? (Probably not). Whatâs it like on the other side of the border? (Scary. Terrifying.). What will I say to Linda if she finds out? (I did it for youâa lie sheâd throw back in his face so fast heâd have to duck.) And of course he asked the most basic question of all: What if I get caught? (Iâm fucked.)
And that was that. They talked for another minute or so, with Val saying theyâd make a run as soon as two weeks from nowâthat heâd have to