standing.
âExcuse me,â someone said, âcoming through.â
âWeâll get my coat in wardrobe,â Jill said.
âSure.â
I followed her off the soundstage and down the corridor past the carpenter shop to the wardrobe office. Jill went in and came out in a moment wearing a silver-tipped mink.
âKathleen,â she spoke back through the open door, âdid Ernie get me that white sable we talked about?â
A womanâs voice from the wardrobe office said, âGot it right here, Jilly.â
âExcellent,â Jill said. âIâll come in tomorrow for a fitting.â
âGive us a little notice if you can,â the womanâs voice said.
Jill didnât answer, nor did she appear to have heard the request for notice. We went on out through the production office and into the front parking lot where I had my car.
âYou need to tell anybody, drivers, anyone like that?â I said.
Jill made a dismissive motion with her hand.
âWhich car is yours?â she said.
âThe glorious black Cherokee,â I said. âIdeal for all-weather surveillance.â
âWell, itâs better than I expected,â she said.
I held the door, she got in, ran a hand over the leather upholstery, and nodded approvingly.
âThe Charles Hotel?â I said.
âIn Cambridge. You know where it is?â
I did my Bogart impression with the flattened upper lip. âI know where everything is, sweetheart.â
She got out a cigarette, pressed in my lighter and waited for it to pop. When it did she put it against the cigarette and the pleasing smell of tobacco lit with a car lighter filled the front seat. She put the lighter back and leaned her head against the back of the seat with the cigarette glowing in her mouth and closed her eyes. Her face was very white and still, nestled in the big collar of her fur coat. Without raising her hand to the cigarette, she took a big drag and let the smoke out slowly from the corners of her mouth. The early winter evening had settled around us, and the automobile headlights on Soldiers Field Road had a pale cold look to them. I let the motor idle while I looked at her, her hands plunged deep into the pockets of her mink, her body tucked well inside it, a little shivery from the cold as we waited for the heater. In the faint light she looked about twelve, except for the glowing cigarette, a tired child, not yet pubescent, the apple unbitten on the tree, the serpent yet to tempt her.
âI need a drink,â she said.
I didnât say anything. Across the river lights were popping on as people came home from work. The mercury lamp streetlights on our side of the river had the weak orange look they get before itâs fully dark and they turn blue-white. Wind whipped a small dervish of powdery snow off the frozen river and spun it west where the river turned toward Watertown.
âI said I need a drink.â Jill spoke around a slow drift of smoke.
âYes, you did,â I said.
âWell for Christâs sake, do something about it.â
âMaybe I could siphon off a little gasoline?â
âDonât be cute with me, stupid. Just get this thing in gear and get us to the hotel.â
âI saw Gene Tierney do that once,â I said. âSmoked a cigarette just like that. Head back, eyes closed. And Sterling Hayden was her boyfriend . . .â
âWill you drive this fucking car?â she said.
I did.
8
T HE doorman at the Charles Hotel was a young guy with a go-to-hell Irish face made red by the cold. He wore a fur-collared greatcoat and the kind of hat Russian ministers wear. He said heâd hold my car for me.
âNo problem,â he said, and started the revolving door turning for Jill Joyce as she preceded me into the lobby.
âCome up for a drink,â she said.
âLast time I came to your place for a drink you attempted to molest me,â I