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desperate. But I feel liberated. I feel like I am finally rid of Colin. I am finally free from what he put me through.
    “Penny for your thoughts, Aurora?” Wesley’s question snaps me out of my inner musings. Probably better off that way anyways. But the question now becomes: Am I honest with him?
    “Just thinking about how much of a slut I should feel like right now.” Before I can even think about my statement, my hand flies up to my mouth in shock. I should laugh, but I am partly mortified I actually came out and said that. “I’m sorry, that totally came out the wrong way.” I’m trying not to smile, but my face is totally winning out on this battle.
    “There is no reason for you to feel like a slut. We are both adults, Aurora.” He says while sipping on his glass of red wine. “Clearly, we have a connection…” he trails off. Yeah, a connection, that is for sure.
    “Wesley, can I be honest with you for a moment?” I ask, waiting for his reply so I can spill how I am really feeling about what just happened.
    “Aurora, I hope you are always honest with me.”
    “I haven’t been with anyone but my ex-husband. And no one since we divorced. I didn’t expect my first time getting back on the horse to be… so….public?” I laugh. I guess I am finally losing that stick up my ass Colin always insisted was so firmly planted. I hate thinking about him and I just wish the past would disappear and swallow all of my memories with him whole.
    “I can’t say I planned that. I’ve thought about being with you every night since I watched you get off on the computer though. Every night, Aurora. That is exactly what I thought about when I would jerk off. In bed, in the shower, before work, before bed. That pussy of yours is just absolutely delicious. Next, I want to lay you down in my bed and lick you for hours.” He says every last work with a huge smile on his face. The confident smile I am really coming to love. He is confident in every word and he knows he will get every last thing he wants.
    “You are confident, Wesley.” I reply with a cocky demeanor. Trying to match the game he is playing across the table.
    “Aurora, darling. Tell me you wouldn’t enjoy that just as much as I would. Tell me no right now and I will never bother you again.” He tosses his cloth napkin onto the table and begins to stand.
    “I can’t tell you no.” I quietly admit as our eyes hold each other’s gaze.
    “Which is why I can’t walk away from you. Whatever this is between us, Aurora…” he points back and forth between our bodies. “This is meant to be. I don’t do relationships or monogamy… but for you, Aurora, I will do anything you want.” I question his sincerity. But, the fact remains, I am just not ready for something exclusive. Not with him, not with anyone. I have dates lined up. I have people I want to meet. I have promises I have made to myself that I won’t let any man get in the way of. Even if he is a good lay.
    “I’m not looking for a relationship, Wesley.” I answer him honestly. As honest as I can be when he is looking at me with those gorgeous eyes and that perfect smile. Any woman would promise him the moon and the stars. I just can’t put myself in that position. Not yet at least.
    “I’ll change your mind on that.” he replies before throwing a couple hundred dollar bills on the table and walking out.
    No goodbye.
    No goodnight kiss.
    Nothing.

That night I lay awake in bed wondering what the hell happened.
    How could I have been so reckless?
    How could I have let him take me so easily?
    I was slowly careening down a road I didn’t like, but for the first time since Colin shattered the safe world I had lived so worry free in… I felt free. I felt alive. I felt like I was really getting the opportunity to live my life.
    The situation I found myself in was a double-edged sword. On one end was a man who genuinely wanted me, probably because I let him fuck me so easily. The other hand