lamppost, we had the park to ourselves. The cedar bushes made the air smell sweet and clean. I rested my head on Cyrusâs shoulder and looked up at the stars. There werenât many in the sky that night, but the ones that were there were unusually bright.
When Cyrus leaned forward and took the camera off his neck, I knew he was about to kiss me. Even so, I felt him keeping one eye on his equipment. Did he really think the homeless guy was going to grab it?
My mood improved when I felt Cyrusâs lips brush against mine. Kissing Cyrus was like having an amazing conversation. He asked me questions with his kisses. I answered with mine.
Eventually, though, we had to go back to the other kind of conversation.
âTessa,â Cyrus whispered into my hair, âI donât know about that school youâre going toâ¦â
I pulled away from him. âYouâre right. You donât know anything about my school. And you know who you sound like? Your parents. The school I go toââI guess I wasnât ready yet to call it my school ââhas a name. New Directions. Sure, Iâd rather be at Tyndale hanging out with you, but thatâs not the way it is. Iâm doing my best to get used to it, and you know what else? I could use a little support.â
âOkay, okay,â Cyrus said, pulling me back toward him. âCalm down, will you? Iâm just wonderingâhow many other kids at New Directions have brothers who got shot?â
âI donât know. I havenât asked.â
âWell, what are the other kids like?â
I thought maybe if I answered Cyrusâs question, heâd understand why I didnât want him calling New Directions that school . âWell, thereâs another tagger. The one I told you aboutâthe guy who draws these cool butterfly people. Pretty Boy. His real nameâs Percy. Thereâre two other girls besides me: Jasmineâsheâs Asianâand Di. Sheâs the one with the pit bull. Then thereâs Whisky and Randy. The boxing teacher, Big Ron, has a thing for nicknames. Jabbinâ Jasmine, Lady Di, Randy Randyâ¦â
I could feel Cyrusâs shoulders tense up. âRandy Randy? As in horndog Randy? As in this guyâs a player?â
âItâs just a nickname.â
âI donât like it.â
âYou donât have to.â
âHow do I know I can trust this Randy Randy?â
âCut it out, Cyrus.â
After that, neither of us said anything for a bit. We just sat looking at the stars. It was better than arguing.
Cyrus removed his camera from the case. Then he took off the lens cap and inspected the lens. âWant to see the photos I shot at Mount Royal?â he asked.
âSure.â Cyrus knew I couldnât resist his photos.
He hit the Display button, and I leaned in to look.
âLove,â I said, and we both laughed. It was a photo of a tall bare tree perched on the edge of a narrow rocky cliff. âMost people wouldâve walked by that tree without noticing it. But not you.â
âThanks,â Cyrus said. âWait till you see the next one.â
The next one looked a lot like the last one. âHow does this one make you feel?â Cyrus asked.
âLonely.â It was a beautiful photograph, but it did make me feel lonely.
âThatâs it.â Cyrus sounded pleased, as if Iâd given the correct answer. âMe too. That was the feeling I was aiming forâ¦What about this one?â
We must have spent an hour looking at Cyrusâs photos, talking about how they made us feel. Sometimes I thought photography was Cyrusâs way of telling me things he couldnât say in words.
âTessaâ¦â Cyrus began.
I bristled. I could tell from the way heâd started his sentence by saying my name that he was about to make another annoying remark.
âI know youâre trying to get used to New Directions,