your name again?”
Damien wrapped himself in despair against
The cold wind, merciless as it lifted off the
River and pushed its way crosstown.
There was so much to say to Junice, he knew
And so little time to fit the words into his
Mouth.
His stomach churned, ached
For Junice, for her to hear his
Please, his pleas, his desperate “I love you”
The passion in “I need you so much!”
He went home and called her from his
Room
He called her as he walked down the
Street, searching passing faces
Looking for her eyes, all the
While trembling inside, trembling
That it might already be too
Late. She might have taken
Her heart to another place.
KEVIN and DAMIEN on MALCOLM X BOULEVARD
Damien, where have you been, bro?
I’ve been seeking and peeking
Around the corners and down
The streets since I heard that you and
Sledge had a serious throwdown
What was that about, man?
Issues, my pride in myths
Against his emptiness
I put love and Junice in the
Same breath and Sledge,
Whose soul barely peeks above
Indifference, scoffed and clawed
At the idea of it.
In the end, with no chance of
Winning, we both slunk away with
Our tails and tales between our legs
With only the children watching
Applauding our violent dance
Junice said something about a wound
But I see you’re merely scratched
You saw her? You spoke to her?
I’ve been calling, but there’s been no answer
I thought you knew
She’s going to Memphis
Tennessee? When?
Tonight. What will you do?
Go after her.
What airline is she going on?
She’s walking the dog, man
Greyhound. Tonight at nine.
But hear me. Hear me though
The words are coming up like
Blood from my throat because
I don’t want to speak them.
You can’t chase her, Damien.
You’d have to surrender your life
She doesn’t know what she’s going to
Do. All she got down there is an old woman
With an older Bible who might take them
In. Give them a room, a roof
The squareness of walls. But her
Situation sounds impossible.
It’s impossible for her to stay here
To surrender Melissa to a system
That doesn’t love her. To put
Her own oar into the waters of that
System.
What will you do if you find her?
Stay with her forever. Longer
If God chooses.
Damien. I love you like a brother, but
You can’t do this.
There is an excitement about Junice
I feel it when I see her, I sense it
In your voice. But excitement is not
Enough, it is not a Forever cast
True, my brother, but the flash of
Danger that surrounds this girl
Illuminates her spirit
Like lightning zagging across
The rooftops on a steamy August
Night
And in that terrible flash
I see a spirit too noble to
Put aside. And the angel of her
Presence, too precious not to love
Standing in the only
Path left for me to take
Damien, what will you do?
Gather my courage, scrape together my
Resolve, withdraw all the character I can
Muster, and go after her. Maybe in Memphis
I can find the hope of an answer, or the
Certain pain of failure. Otherwise
It’s all nothing but the constant stumble
To the grave. Wish me luck, bro.
Damien, I got your back
Wherever you are I’m going to be
There with you. I’m not a praying dude
But I’ll be talking to the Man for you
Two. You deal with the Memphis
End, and count on me to be
Here. To the end, Damien.
And on from there, Kevin.
And on from there.
The PORT AUTHORITY BUS TERMINAL
The New York bus terminal is dark
Is dark despite the garish lights assembled
Along the tiled walls. Dark as if,
As if some malignant spirit has settled
Down with the tortured souls that rest
There until the police move them.
As if the desperate late-night travelers
To Salt Lake City and Savannah
And Memphis don’t deserve the brightness
Of hope.
On the lowest floor, among the shuffling
Ragged and hairy men, families guarding
Cardboard boxes and plastic shopping
Bags, Damien found Junice.
Sitting next to an old man
Brazil-nut brown on the hard