He considered the necessities of the situation. Basically, he had to get her into his sight as soon as possible. Jane wasnât safe. She was free, and he had to save her from being free.
Iâm okay. Iâm with my boyfriend. There was something so tragic about the likelihood of Jane having a boyfriend.
Whoâs the boyfriend? Claudio felt his muscles smoggy and syncopated, his liminal impulses hating this man before he would know his name.
Iâve had a lot out here. But this oneâs the last one. Heâs the real deal. A grand slam! His name is Otis. Sit on a potato pan, Otis, she sang.
Where are you now? Claudio asked. He thought, but didnât say, - Iâll come and get you. -
America. The beautiful.
Can you be a little more specific?
New Orleans. Jane pronounced it with a phony Creole accent, Narlins, a counterfeit native.
Thatâs quite a ways.
You feel closer through the phone, she said, metaphorically or crazily.
I was thinking, do you want to come visit me in New York? Claudio thought about telling her that he had just gotten married but didnât want to overwhelm her. Besides, he didnât really feel married yet. Things were more or less the same. We just set up our apartment. Youâd like it. Itâs charming.
Charming means small, my dear, said Jane.
- Where does she have it in her to be snobby? - Claudio wondered. - What entitled her? -
We have a guest room. Weâll stock it with wooden hangers and flowers, said Claudio. Magazines. A good reading light.
I donât know, Janeâs voice ricocheted. Maybe. She sounded like she had a cloud in her throat. Maybe she was eating yogurt, Claudio hoped.
Well, I already bought you a ticket, and I donât want it to have to go to waste.
I canât fly, said Jane.
Why not?
I need my boyfriendâs permission.
Whyâs that?
Stop asking me questions, you crazy poo poo, said Jane. Take a hike.
Blanche DuBoisâs last line in A Streetcar Named Desire is Iâve always depended on the kindness of strangers.
the jane who was a sister
september 1976
W hen Claudio was eleven, he snooped through his sisterâs drawers. He had nothing in mind he was looking for, was only curious about the person his sister was turning into.
What are you doing? Leave right now, said Jane, whose face and head smelled like anointed pomade, whoâd recently gained about twenty pounds in her chest and hips. On the school bus that year, some guys made slurping noises to her, like faucets, and Claudio pretended not to hear them. It was the same deal for the nights when Jane would sound like she had a runny noseâthere was no way she couldâve had a cold every night and be cured the next morning. With all the tulip-shaped Kleenex in her wastebasket. With her eyelids like pudding.
For some reason Jane didnât talk to him anymore; Claudio felt like he had made a mistake by growing up. Maybe heâd grown in a wicked direction or matured in a brusque way that convinced her not to like him. They were no longer a team, which both troubled and thrilled Claudio. It was only exciting because now a stranger (at best, an acquaintance) lived in his house. He knew a woman restricted and always a few feet away. The body shouldnât have belonged to Jane. She didnât know what to do with it anyway.
Two weeks before, Claudioâs family went on vacation for the first and only time, to Las Vegas. They drove across the countryin their fatherâs Chevy Chevette hatchback, all of them fretting over the carâs probability to crumple like crepe paper.
Eight dollars a night for their motel and they were greeted upon their arrival by two used towels in the bathroom, a drain clogged with ruffled hairs, and a muggy lock that wouldnât open for eight minutes. On the penultimate night, Claudioâs father found dried bloodstains on the bottom of his pillow. Some luck, he said. You get what you pay for, I guess.
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