confidence. You can never pay her a complimentâshe wonât let you. She hates her parents. She mucks around at everythingâitâs as though she doesnât want to have a proper go at it, in case she fails. Or in case she succeeds. She takes the biggest risksâshe could have been expelled about six times already this year. She and Kate went into town at midnight at the start of last weekâthey caught a taxi at the roundabout and didnât come back till about three in the morning.
Another good thing about Soph is that she really is generous. Sheâd give you anything. You canât say you like anything sheâs wearing, or sheâll try to give it to you. Sheâd give you the shirt off her back and the bra off her front. I think her parents must have heaps of moneyâsheâs got the best clothes of anyone in the dormâbut she takes the worst care of her stuff. She loses and breaks more things than anyone Iâve ever seen. Sheâs also the cheekiest student to teachers that Iâve ever seen. When Mr Bostock was giving back tests the other day Sophie didnât hear him call her name, so he picked up hers and brought it down the room towards her saying, âWhat do you want, Sophie, Room Service?â She just said, âThatâs what youâre paid for isnât it?â
He acted like he didnât hear, but I canât see how he could have missed it. Everyone in the room heard.
So, thatâs Soph, about the most unboring person Iâve ever met. I donât know whether Iâll put down to be with her next year, but I know one thing, I wouldnât have missed it.
A PRIL 18
I got a message to go see Dr Whiteley today, which had me a bit worried, but it was only for an Anzac Day service next weekâthereâre two kids from each year, and she wants Rikki and me to go for Year Nine. Itâs quite an honour really.
We did this beautiful poem in English yesterday, called âThe Good-Morrowâ. Itâs a love poem, written four hundred years ago.
For love, all love of other sights controls ,
And makes one little room, an everywhere .
Let sea-discoverers to new worlds have gone ,
Let Maps to other worlds on worlds have shown ,
Let us possess one world, each hath one, and is one . . .
Itâs so sweet. Iâm going to write it out in full and stick it on my deskânext to Peterâs photo, I think. Itâs kind of ironic that the day after we did the poem, Cathy got a phone call from Andy to say she was dropped. So that didnât last long. She was so upsetâI didnât realise she liked him that much.
Weâve got so much Prep I shouldnât be writing in this at all. Itâs hard to settle down to proper work thoughâmy desk is next to the door into the dorm, and Annâs in there playing her violin, like she does every night. I know she has to practise, but she always spins it out twice as long as she should, so she can get out of Prep. And itâs so boring. She plays the same tunes over and over, especially that theme from âSecond Comingâ. She sounds like galvanised iron when youâre pulling one sheet of it across another.
A PRIL 19
Chloe came to see me again today. It is good that she does it. No guy in tow either, although she says sheâs still with Hamish. She said Dadâs getting with someone, too. I really cracked at her, until she said, âItâs not my fault. Donât take it out on me.â We started talking a bit then. I asked her if she was glad they were divorced, and she said she thought it was better in some ways. She said she couldnât understand why it happened thoughâshe thought theyâd stopped fighting quite a few months before. I realised then that she didnât know the full story at all. Thatâs good in one wayâthat she doesnât know I caused it. See, she was away a lot towards the end of that