eat these. Theyâre too good. But of course, I will.â
Then he leaves me, still laughing to himself. I let the nurse clean me up and prepare me for going home.
***
Dad calls round to see me after I get home from hospital.
Iâm in the kitchen making mini carrot cakes with buttercream frosting. Iâve cut some carrot shapes out of my leftover fondant icing and coloured them orange and Iâm just sticking these on top of the finished cakes. Thereâs a pile of homework upstairs with my name on it, but after a day spent in the hot, disinfectant-smelling air of the hospital, I fancied letting my creative vision run riot so Iâve ditched the idea of doing maths until later.
âThere,â I say, standing back to admire my handiwork. The little square cakes stand to attention in neat lines on the rack, each one covered in fluffy buttercream which Iâve run a fork through to make peaks that look a bit like snowdrifts.
âOh yes!â says Dad, heading towards the rack with a purposeful look in his eye. âI reckon you need a second opinion on those from your Chief Taster.â
I sigh.
âHarry is Chief Taster,â I say. âYou can be Back-up Taster, if you like.â
Dad frowns.
âIâve been relegated to the sidelines,â he says. âWow. And Iâm your favourite Dad and all that.â
I let him pick out a cake and bite into the rich sponge.
âGood?â I say. âI added some lemon juice just to make it a bit different.â
âMm,â says Dad with his cheeks bulging. âExcellent. And I would love to see what you can do with a courgette.â
I smile and click the kettle on. Mum comes downstairs and gives Dad a peck on the cheek.
âThought I heard you,â she says. âWhy donât you come outside and admire my petunias?â
âOh, right,â says Dad. âHow much more excitement can one man take?â
He winks at me and then heads off outside with Mum and they walk around our back courtyard garden, staring into pots and tubs and chatting avidly all the time.
I make the tea and bang on the window and they wave but donât come in.
Iâm about to bang again and then I realise what theyâre doing. Why Dad has come over, in fact. Theyâre discussing the London question. Theyâre talking about me.
For a moment I feel a surge of anger. Then I bite it down again. I know itâs only because they care. But if theyâre discussing something about my future, then really I should be out there taking part in the discussion with them.
I put the three mugs on a tray and add three of my mini carrot cakes and I head out the back. Mum and Dad have stopped looking at plants. Mum is now facing Dad with her hands on her hips which canât be a good thing, as thatâs the position she adopts when sheâs telling me off about something. Dad is staring at his feet and shuffling them about which is also not good.
I sigh and offer the tray.
âI know youâre talking about me,â I say. âWhich is why Iâve come out here. Plus I canât actually lip-read through the window which is kind of annoying.â
Dad smiles when I say this. Mum doesnât.
âSometimes your father and I need to talk about stuff in private,â she says. âYou could have given us another minute, surely?â
I look at Dad. He shrugs and reaches for a mug of tea.
âYour motherâs in charge here,â he says. âWhat she says, goes.â
He says this in a mechanical way, like heâs rehearsed it. I look at him more closely. He doesnât look very pleased. Iâm not sure whether heâs annoyed with Mum or with me for coming outside and interrupting.
âDad,â I say. âWhat do YOU think about me going to London? Honestly?â
Dad glances at Mum. She gives him an imploring sort of look, like sheâs trying to affect what heâs about to say,