guess Evan sees these great things, too.
But why couldnât he see all the great things about
me
? Like how I make almost all Aâs. I mean, I could be the money-earner and he could live a life of leisure as my soul mate! Heâll never get that with Tabbi. Trust me.
And how Iâm good at creating things. I mean, not many people have the imagination to turn an Altoids tin into a mini suitcase with masking tape, shoe polish, and a piece of wire. And I love to laugh! Iâd laugh at all of his crazy comments and stupid jokes. Why couldnât Evan have seen this? Why? Why? Why?
I decided to tell Tabbi the truth. But not all of it. I told her it was hard for me to not have a boyfriend, especially now that she did.
âOne day the right guy is going to see how great you are.â Tabbi hugged me. And I appreciated it. But I wish weâd been paying more attention to the podium. Because Mr. Waldorf stepped up and everyone fell silent and put down their instruments just as Tabbi added, âDonât worry, Kara, youâll get a boyfriend soon.â
Bus ride home
âIâm
sorry
!â Tabbi said as I climbed up the metal steps and through the folding door.
I couldnât answer her. I knew Iâd cry, and I was humiliated enough already.
By this time tomorrow the whole school will know that I want a boyfriend. Iâll look desperate. And okay, I am desperate. But does
everybody
have to know?
The minute I got home
As soon as I stepped off of the bus, my cell rang. It was Maybelline! That girl has rotten timing.
âHey, Kara. This is Colleen. I heard you left school upset and I just wanted to know whatâs wrong. All those Aâs not helping you get a boyfriend?â
Click.
After dinner
After Maybellineâs
call, I went straight to Momâs craft corner, which is down in the basement along with our old sofa, old TV, and old everything else. You know, stuff that isnât good enough to keep upstairs but is too good to throw away. I felt like breaking something, and thereâs a lot of old junk stashed with the craft supplies. I grabbed a loop of wire and twisted it, twisted it, twisted it until it looked like an angry blob. But the blob also kinda looked like a fish. So I added fins and threaded a blue bead on for an eye.
In the end, the fish looked really cool! And you know what? I felt a lot better. Mom always says that creating is a form of healing. I think sheâs right!
Bedtime. For real.
Just got a text from Tabbi.
Plz 4giv me.
Sheâs probably afraid to call. Iâm glad. I donât want to talk to her. But I do forgive her.
So just before I turned out the lights, after I knew her mom had taken her phone away (sheâs waaay strict about bedtime), I texted Tabbi back.
OK
Wednesday, January 17
First period
Evan smiled at me when he passed by just now. At one point I would have thought this was a great sign, but now I do not.
Lunch
Whew. Everyone seems to have forgotten about what Tabbi said in band, probably because thereâs bigger news. Phillip Bernard (of gorgeous eyebrow fame) got â and then lost â his first official girlfriend last night.
Phillip is really cute, but heâs also so shy that heâs never actually gone out with anyone. Weâve all been wondering who he liked. Apparently, he texted Elizabeth R and asked her to go out. Then ten minutes after she said yes, he changed his mind and broke it off. With another text. Yep, they got together and broke up without seeing each other OR actually talking. Now she
hates
him, supposedly. I hope she wasnât supposed to be his one and only soul mate!
After school
Well. Iâve certainly gathered more information on Mr. DeLacey than I ever wanted to know. I know so much about him now that I need to scrap my first index card and make a new one.
Apparently, replacing real names with funny fake names is not equally funny to all people. At first I figured Mr. DeLacey