movies and television shows, and if she asked, âHow do you feel about that?â one more time, he would seriouslyâ
Like
that
was going to get him back to work. He chomped at the inside of his mouth and surveyed her across the short space between his chair and hers. At least she didnât have a couch in here.
Archer tapped her pen on the pad that lay in her lap. âDo you realize that weâve been at this for two monthsââ
âOh, yeah,â he said, nodding. âIâm well aware of that.â
ââand we havenât made what I would consider any measurable progress?â
âI feel fine.â
âI donât.â She took off the glasses and parked them on top of her head. Winters could never figure out why she did that. âJim Rebhorn was right to ask me to take you on. The kind of trauma you underwent can change a personââ
âI was captured,â Winters defended, âand our people rescued meââ
âNot before your captors held a knife to your throat and threatened to slash itââ
âBut they didnât.â
âAnd yet the nightmares continue.â Archer put her glasses back on. âThe last thing Jim needs is an agent trying to deal with emotional pain on the job and failing at both.â
Winters shifted in the chair. âSo youâve said.â
âAnd Iâll keep saying it. Your return to active duty is subject to my approval and so far, Iâm not seeing much effort from you to get it.â
He hated throwing her even so much as a crumb, but she was right. He would return to work when she said so. His supervisor, Jim Rebhorn, had made that abundantly clear each time Winters had called him, which was every week since the first âepisode.â The last time, Rebhorn hadnât answered at all. âI did one thing you suggested,â he said.
âAnd what was that?â
âI took up a hobby. A âcalming hobby.ââ
âSkydiving?â
âCut me some slack here, Doc. Iâm not that crazy.â
âThen what hobby did you find?â
âIâm researching my genealogy.â
She seemed surprised. âYouâre kidding.â
âYou donât approve.â
âI donât disapprove. I just expected something else. Golf, maybe. Or tennis. Not genealogy. Where did that come from?â
Winters crossed his legs. Now he might be getting somewhere. âMy mother believed weâre direct descendants of Christopher Columbus.â
Archer had a skeptical expression. âIs this a joke?â
âShe didnât think so.â
âBut do you?â
Winters shook his head. âActually, Iâm finding out some pretty interesting stuff. Did you know, for instanceââ
âJohn.â Her face was sober.
âWhat?â
âI told you to find something to soothe your nervesâso you can face the issues you have to confront to get well. Have you had any more episodes?â
âI had another
dream
when I was in Maryland.â
âUnderstandable. Your motherâs death was yet another stressor. Was it about the raid?â
âThe dream?â
âYes.â
âYeah.â Winters nodded. âIt was about the raid.â
âHow far into it did you get?â
âNot far.â
Winters stood, walked to the window, and looked down at the Mission District. It was a peculiar location for a psychiatristâs office. Behind him, Archer waited patiently. âLook,â Winters said finally, âI know what happened that day.â
âAnd it wasnât what you wanted to happen.â
âIt wasnât what
should
have happened. But stuff like that does go down. You move on.â
âAnd that would account for the breakdown you had in your supervisorâs office.â
âI didnât have a breakdown.â
âYou shoved everything off the manâs