desk, kicked his chair across the room, punched a hole in the wall, and broke the window when you threw your gun at it.â
Winters turned to face her. âAll right. I got upset when they put me on leave.â
âI think there was more to it than that.â
âLike what?â
âLike the trauma of that raid.â
Winters shoved his hands into his pockets. âHave you ever been in a life-and-death situation?â
âNo, but you haveâmore than a few times. It was your job to be in those situations. If we can figure out what happened in hereââArcher put her hand to her chestââthen youâll have a chance.â
âTo get back to work.â
âTo get back to yourself.â
Winters hated it when she said stuff like that, but once again he held back. Archer was right about one thing. If he didnât work with her, he had no chance at all. âOkay,â he said. âWhat do you want to know?â
âDid you seek counseling after your wife died?â
The air seemed to go out of the room and Winters glared at her. âWhat happened to my wife has nothing to do with this. Are we clear on that?â His face was tense and the muscles in his jaw flexed. âDonât bring it up again.â
Archer rose from her chair. âI think thatâs enough for today.â
For once, he agreed with her.
Outside the building, Winters unlocked his bike from the handicap rail and sped up Nineteenth Street, breathing in the smells of every restaurant he passed. He was several blocks into the ride before he stopped imagining ways to have Archer fired, along with the monologue he would deliver right before he told her where to put her psychological services.
Avoiding pain? Of course he was avoiding pain. Who didnât?
Yes, he was worried about his career. Yes, he wanted to get backto work. Why did she think he kept coming to see her every week? To look at her legs? They werenât
that
great.
Winters erased that last remark. He didnât go there with women. He didnât go anywhere with womenâbecause heâd had the best and lost her.
The shrill sound of a truckâs horn snapped him back to the present and he swerved the bike to a halt. His heart slammed in his chest. He had to get a handle on this. His career was all he had. Maria obviously didnât want a relationship with him.
But if getting a handle on it meant talking about Anne . . . that wasnât happening. That wasnât happening at all.
The light was already shifting by the time they actually got started. There was the matter of personnel to consider.
âWe got enough people?â Winters asked Smith.
âOakland PD has the area cordoned off, four blocks in every direction. SWAT is ready to join our guys at the front door. An ATF team is waiting for you in back. And the sheriffâs office has men patrolling the perimeter just in case.â
âMight not be enough,â Winters said.
A grin tightened Smithâs moustache, but only briefly. âYou donât really think we need more.â
âI think if we get in there and find out weâre shorthanded, itâll be too late to matter.â
Smith adjusted the bill of his ball cap. âYou want me to get some more guys up here? FBI would be all too glad to dive in on this case. Theyâve been lobbying for it for two months.â
âNever mind,â Winters said. âIâd rather close this one by myself than ask them for help.â
âYou sure?â
Winters had almost forgotten Donleavy was there. His previous bravado had faded, and the skin around his mouth had gone pale.
âWeâre okay,â Winters said.
He let his eyes dart to the five Secret Service agents gathered near the curb. Donleavy nodded, although he didnât look at all relieved.
âYou carrying?â Winters asked.
Donleavy patted his right hip, and Winters smothered a