prove I could, to prove that every morning didnât start when it became too warm to sleep, that every day wouldnât be spent in only boxer shorts until well into the afternoon. Convention dictated that a meal out required more than one item of clothing. It required shoes, interaction. Some days that was a lot to ask, but the upside was caffeine in quality form and a kickstart to the day, plus a chance to read the paper in the oldway, and every detail of it, rather than just staring at the screen at home, soaking up the pixels.
The morning after the meeting at Randall Hood Beckett began like my other days, though, facedown in a messy forgettable dream. I missed the call from Selina that came through around nine and went to voicemail.
âJust checking to see that youâve got the media file on the incident,â her message said when I picked the phone up from the table an hour later. I had been about to charge it when I noticed someone had actually called. âIâm not sure if youâre aware that files donât leave the office without high-level approval.â There was a pause there, as though I might want to make excuses to her recorded voice. âIâve marked it down as checked out to you. Not that Iâm high-level or anything,â she said, âbut consider your arse covered, new boy.â
My toast popped, half-done as always.
I called Selina back right away, worried that my arse was even in play, and she said, âItâs probably my fault you didnât know the score. Anyway, Max okayed it just now. And itâs not like itâs a legal file. So, enjoy.â
I gave my toast its second go through, Vegemited it, and thought about having fortune cookies instead.
I opened the file and took my first good look at the photocopy of Benâs medal nomination. It had been submitted in Frankâs name, and he had signed the covering page. The form asked the nominator to attach photographs and statements from eyewitnesses, and Frankâs covering letter itemised a dozen or more. It was a lawyerâs letter, making a case and making it robustly. I couldnât imagine him doing it any other way.
I read through his own report of the incident and some of the material he had included to support it. Rob Mueller had appeared psychotic, deranged, crazy. Different people put it in different ways, and some said only that he was angry. He had been a client of the firm once, though in a minor way. Another lawyer who mentioned that made it seem like nothing, just routine business.
It was Frankâs letter I kept coming back to. It had the story. âMy head wound was bleeding profusely. By this time Mueller was even more agitated. It was clear he was going to shoot me. I was on the floor when Ben rushed him. In the struggle, the gun discharged.â
Ben in his sharp suit and his neat hair, rushing, struggling, with a loaded gun as part of the fight.
I could hardly imagine what it would be like to be tested that way. Perhaps none of us could know how we might respond. I wasnât planning to flatter myself by thinking I would do the same.
Ben was a hero and I was building a solid fraction of my next career on pieces that began with lines like, âWhoever invented shiny toilet paper anyway?â He was owed a good investiture, and I would put the past aside to give him that.
When I had left for London I had assumed that I would be home one day, but I had imagined arriving if not in triumph then at least in something â some state that said my time away had amounted to time well spent. Perhaps buying the flat was proof of that.
I had big ideas about what my deposit would get me, but then I converted my hoarded sterling into dollars and saw what had happened to Brisbane real estate prices while I had been away. The Venn diagram of my firstweekend driving around open houses would have had one circle for places in which I would have liked to live, one for places I
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