a bit grungy, was far better off for its presence. In a lot of ways, it was typical of the urban renewal process. People somehow thought it should happen instantly, simply because you poured money into a shiny new building. But the fact was, it had taken America many long decades of concerted effort to systematically destroy its cities. It would take at least that long to build them back up.
And sure enough, Newark was getting better. A new arena, the Prudential Center, had eventually joined NJPAC downtown. A cultural community was slowly taking hold. New restaurants were cropping up. So now at least when suburbanites announced they were going to Newark for the evening, their peers looked at them only slightly crookedly.
Tina and I arrived at seven-thirty for an eight o’clock show. The Eagle-Examiner was one of the event’s sponsors, which meant we were invited to a special, preshow cocktail party. Once inside the building, we found the gathering simply by following the sound of overly boisterous chatter.
“Well, I don’t know about you, but I’ve been sober long enough today,” I announced as we entered.
“Yeah, why don’t you do something about that for both of us,” said Tina, who didn’t seem to notice or care that she was being ogled by every man in the room with usable eyeballs.
I elbowed my way toward the bar, procured a Sam Adams for the gentleman and a white wine for the lady, and returned to find Tina alone but still not lacking for attention.
“Wow, that was a tough choice,” I said. “They had both of my favorite beers up there.”
“What are those?” Tina asked.
“Free and Free Light.”
“You can dress him up, but you still can’t take him anywhere,” Tina said, shaking her head.
We scanned the crowd, which was decked out in its finery, as if the orchestra would refuse to play if a single person wore jeans. There was nothing like the symphony to bring out the heavy-duty pretense in people, and it was being layered thickly in every corner of the room: men acting more important than they really were, women masking insecurities in catty comments, wannabe aristocrats hoping not to be outed as members of the proletariat.
As a newspaper reporter, I’m required to move in all strata of society. I get to observe human behavior everywhere, from the meanest housing projects to the gilded symphony hall. And what always strikes me is that when you strip away the superficial differences in clothing, setting, and dialect, groups of people everywhere are more or less the same. We all have our pretenses. We all posture to a certain degree. But, ultimately, most of us are just trying to find a way to fit in.
Still, in any crowd, there’s always one guy who—in a strictly symbolic sense—thinks his dick is bigger than everyone else’s. And in this crowd, that man was the guy in the middle of the room with the pocket square: Gary A. Jackman.
“Speaking of people you can’t take anywhere…” I said, pointing Tina’s attention toward our publisher.
We studied him for a moment. Something was obviously off. His face was flushed, as if he had just been running. His hair, which I had never seen even slightly out of place, was mussed in a haphazard way. His tie was askew. His voice was too loud. His posture, much like the amber-colored beverage anchored in his right hand, was sloshing from side to side.
“Is he…” Tina started, giggled, then finished: “Oh my God, Jackass is drunk.”
“Correction: Jackass is hammered, ” I said.
Tina tittered some more, putting her hand in front of her mouth to hide her giggling.
“That is just so regrettable,” she said. “He’s not a very subtle drunk, is he?”
I didn’t find it quite as funny as Tina. For better or worse, this was the man charged with being the public face of the Newark Eagle-Examiner. And here he was, surrounded by some of the finer members of polite New Jersey society, totally inebriated. He wasn’t just embarrassing