your duty to stay where your guests can observe you. You will allow me to guide you in this matter, as you will allow me to guide you in the matter of your marriage.â
âMy marriage?â
âTo me.â She rested her narrow hand on his sleeve. âJean told me of your trifling objections, but youâre alogical man, and I feel sure youâll soon see the good sense of my ways.â
Looking down on the jeweled cap which covered her fall of blond hair, he wondered if he stood a chance against Lady Honoraâs determination and his own need for affluence. Then he remembered the mystery girl and how he would use her. He had only to keep her at the forefront of his mind, and Honoraâs schemes would be for naught.
Lady Honora inspected him as if he were a peasant recruit in Her Majestyâs army. Without care for those listening to the play, she spoke in a normal tone of voice. âYou look quite odd, and you will of course wish to decide that our marriage is your idea. A man does like to believe he is the master of his destiny. But in the meantime, do your hostly duty and sit in the place I have procured.â
Bursting with indignation, he snapped, âDamn my hostly duty, and damnââ
The audience turned as one and hushed him , as if he were the only one inhibiting their enjoyment of the play, and the actors raised their voices and their eloquence to reclaim the attention due them.
With her own unique interpretation, Lady Honora said, âYou see, I am right. They wish you to sit with me.â
She tugged at him again, and he gave up. After all, what did it matter where he sat or stood or thought? The play would unfold, but its plot could never compete with the plot that filled his mind.
With many polite murmurings, he worked his way through the crowd, following in Honoraâs wake. In some distant part of his mind, he appreciated the laughter the two players dragged from the spectators. He was glad the actors kept his company entertainedwith their passionate moaning for a heartless lady, Earlene.
As if his thoughts had conjured her, she appearedâthe woman heâd kissed, the woman heâd lusted after, the woman he would perhaps court. She walked onto the stage, and her appearance was greeted by a roar of appreciation from the audience.
Did they know her? He glanced around eagerly. Was she some noblewoman who strode the boards as a jest?
But no, the audienceâs appreciation was coarse and impersonal, caught up in the play and waiting eagerly for the next line. What did it mean?
He looked at her again, and saw her with new eyes. Heâd assumed her to be a poverty-stricken, lacking-in-taste noblewoman. But nowâ¦his gut tightened. Leaning toward Lady Honora, he murmured, âWho is she?â
âWho is who?â Lady Honora asked, her tone precise and austere.
âWho isââhe nodded at the stageââshe?â
Puzzled, Lady Honora followed his gaze. âSheâs the wife who cuckolded her husband.â
âNo!â He scrubbed the back of his hand across his lips and tried again. âI mean who is she, really?â
âReally?â Lady Honora turned to face him. âReally? Sheâs an â¦heâs an actor, one of Sir Dannyâs troupe. Why are youââ
The rest of her words were lost to him as he staggered to his feet. He never heard the cries to sit down or felt the jabs from the people behind him. He knew only one thing.
Heâd kissed a boy. Heâd kissed a man .
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It is not so; thou hast misspoke, misheard.
âK ING J OHN , III, i. 4
But had he really ?
Lord Bothey kicked Tonyâs knee from behind, and he collapsed back onto the bench.
Had he really kissed a man?
The mere thought made him want to spit, to leap up on the stage and knock that Tom-farthing buttercup into next week. But something stopped him. Something niggled at him. Some evidence, some disregarded