disappeared at the end of 1991, she was listed as
missing. Last week I was informed that her body had been identified
from the exhumation of a mass grave, in that part of Croatia that
is
now under Serb control. She had been dead for fifteen months, buried
and hidden. I want to know what happened to her. I want to know
how
she died and why she died. She was my only daughter, Mr. Penn."
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He
interrupted, "Isn't this a job for ... ?" "You should let me finish, Mr. Penn .. . But since you raise it ... Shouldn't this be a job
for
the Foreign Office? Of course it should. Do you know anything about
government departments, Mr. Penn? They're useless. That's a
generalization and a true one. Good at cups of tea in a First
Secretary's office, good at booking a hotel room, good at platitudes,
and they don't give a damn, just some silly woman using up their day.
I
have been to Zagreb, Mr. Penn, I was there when Dorrie, my daughter,
was missing, and I was there to bring her body home. I thought it
was
their job to help people like me, and I was wrong. Arnold is a good
friend. Arnold gave me your name .. ." High excitement coursing,
yesterday, when he had been told by Deirdre that Arnold Browne had
left
the message for him to call, immediately. He had sat in the cubbyhole
area where Basil had given him the desk, and savoured the moments
before he had picked up the telephone. All some mistake, a mistake
to
have let him go, and of course they wanted him back ... or .. . pretty
bad cock-up, losing him, but the Service had plenty of scope for work
by outsiders who were trusted and proven, nice little one for him,
and
of course he was not forgotten. And what brutal disappointment
crushing him, yesterday, when he had dialled the direct-line number,
spoken to Arnold bloody Browne, been told that a neighbour had a
problem, needed a bit of uncomplicated ferreting, needed a good
plodder
was what the bloody man meant ... He ran his tongue over his lower
lip.
"What was it you wanted of me?"
She had her handbag open and she had taken the ointment tube out.
She
didn't ask his permission. She squeezed the ointment onto her
forefinger and reached forward and, casual, gentle, she smeared the
salve onto the split of his lower lip.
"I want you to go to Zagreb for me. I want to know how my Dorrie
died,
and why."
He thought her so bloody vulnerable, she shouldn't have been there.
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She
shouldn't have been in the waiting room that doubled as clients'
interview room in a shabby, God-awful, dreary little office. He told
her that he would think on it overnight, that if he took it he would
come down in the morning, if ... She gave him an address. He would
think on it and consider it. He walked her out of the office and
they
passed Basil on the stairs, and the one-time CID man gave her the
look-over of a bloody farmer evaluating livestock. They stood on
the
pavement outside the launderette.
"Would you tell me .. . ?"
"What?" he rasped.
"Would you tell me what state he is in, the man who hit you this
morning?"
He saw the mischief dance in her eyes.
Penn said, "I would have been done for assault. No, if I'd hit him like I know, then I'd have been done for murder. What state is he
in?
Probably pretty good, probably he's looking forward to getting pissed
up in the pub this lunch time and telling the rest of the select lounge
how he put one on me. I served the Process, but that's a small-beer
victory .. ."
Then the mischief was gone and she was serious. "I like winning,
Mr.
Penn, I expect to win ... I want to know how my daughter died, I want
to know who killed her, I want to know why she was killed. I want
to
know."
They had been at the roadblock an hour. They had sat in the jeep
and
smoked and talked together for an hour before they heard the coughing
approach of the truck. The engine would go on the truck if it went
on
burning the bad diesel that the sanction busters
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