in a careful voice:
âNicholson Minor and I are going to make nitroglycerine in his fatherâs shrubbery. They live at Streatham.â
âAre you, dear? That will be very nice,â said Gerda.
There was still time. If she rang the bell and told Lewis to take the joint down nowâ
Terence looked at her with faint curiosity. He had felt instinctively that the manufacture of nitroglycerine was not the kind of occupation that would be encouraged by parents. With base opportunism he had selected a moment when he felt tolerably certain that he had a good chance of getting away with his statement. And his judgement had been justified. If, by any chance, there should be a fussâif, that is, the properties of nitroglycerine should manifest themselves too evidently, he would be able to say in an injured voice, âI told Mother.â
All the same, he felt vaguely disappointed.
âEven Mother, â he thought, âought to know about nitroglycerine.â
He sighed. There swept over him that intense sense of loneliness that only childhood can feel. His father was too impatient to listen, his mother was too inattentive. Zena was only a silly kid.
Pages of interesting chemical tests. And who cared about them? Nobody!
Bang! Gerda started. It was the door of Johnâs consulting room. It was John running upstairs.
John Christow burst into the room, bringing with him his own particular atmosphere of intense energy. He was good-humoured, hungry, impatient.
âGod,â he exclaimed as he sat down and energetically sharpened the carving knife against the steel. âHow I hate sick people!â
âOh, John.â Gerda was quickly reproachful. âDonât say things like that. Theyâll think you mean it.â
She gestured slightly with her head towards the children.
âI do mean it,â said John Christow. âNobody ought to be ill.â
âFatherâs joking,â said Gerda quickly to Terence.
Terence examined his father with the dispassionate attention he gave to everything.
âI donât think he is,â he said.
âIf you hated sick people, you wouldnât be a doctor, dear,â said Gerda, laughing gently.
âThatâs exactly the reason,â said John Christow. âNo doctors like sickness. Good God, this meatâs stone cold. Why on earth didnât you have it sent down to keep hot?â
âWell, dear, I didnât know. You see, I thought you were just comingââ
John Christow pressed the bell, a long, irritated push. Lewis came promptly.
âTake this down and tell Cook to warm it up.â
He spoke curtly.
âYes, sir.â Lewis, slightly impertinent, managed to convey in the two innocuous words exactly her opinion of a mistress who sat at the dining table watching a joint of meat grow cold.
Gerda went on rather incoherently:
âIâm so sorry, dear, itâs all my fault, but first, you see, I thought you were coming, and then I thought, well, if I did send it backâ¦.â
John interrupted her impatiently.
âOh, what does it matter? It isnât important. Not worth making a song and dance about.â
Then he asked:
âIs the car here?â
âI think so. Collie ordered it.â
âThen we can get away as soon as lunch is over.â
Across Albert Bridge, he thought, and then over Clapham Commonâthe shortcut by the Crystal PalaceâCroydonâPurley Way, then avoid the main roadâtake that right-hand fork up Metherly Hillâalong Haverston Ridgeâget suddenly right of the suburban belt, through Cormerton, and then up Shovel Downâtrees golden redâwoodland below one everywhereâthe soft autumn smell, and down over the crest of the hill.
Lucy and Henryâ¦Henriettaâ¦.
He hadnât seen Henrietta for four days. When he had last seen her, heâd been angry. Sheâd had that look in her eyes. Not abstracted, not