Jackie.
When the boys grew older and as big as their father, she couldnât control them, and the letters she exchanged with Jackie became even more important in her life. Her husbandâs attitude toward child rearing was that the meaner the boys were, the more masculine they were. The more often they got into trouble in school, the prouder he was of them. Terri tried to talk to him, to tell him that he was encouraging their delinquent behavior, but his reasoning was that this was the way he had been raised and heâd turned out all right. Terri knew better than to point out that heâd never been able to keep a job for longer than eight months because he got into fights with his bosses. His sons were turning out just like him, arguing with teachers and principals and store owners and anyone who happened to get in their way.
Terriâs real life and the life she wrote Jackie about bore little relation to each other. Now that her big, awkward sons were nearly grown and were rarely at home, the brightest point in her life was these visits to the old ghost town to spend time with Jackie. She had no idea if Jackie knew the truth about her life. It wouldnât have been too difficult for her to find out, as everyone in Chandler knew everyone elseâs business, but somehow Terri doubted Jackie did. To the folks of Chandler, Jackie was a celebrity, and she didnât think people would be rushing to tell her about Nobody Terri Pelmanâs boring life.
So, as often as possible, Terri visited Jackie, and the two of them kept up the façade of Terriâs splendid golden life in which she had everything: the steady love of a good man, three beautiful children who had turned into fine, upstanding young men, and a lovely, gracious home.
âIt wasnât like that,â Jackie said, laughing. âIt wasnât a romantic encounter. I mean, he did kiss me butââ
âYou crash a plane, a gorgeous man comes out of the night, rescues youââshe raised her eyebrowsââand kisses you, and you say, âIt wasnât like that.â So, Jackie, what was it like?â
âTerri, you are incorrigible. I donât think youâll be happy until you get me married and pregnant.â
âAnd why shouldnât you be as miserable as the rest of us?â
âSometimes I almost think you mean what you say. If I didnât know the truth about how much you love that family of yours Iâdââ
âTell me!â
âReally, there isnât much to tell.â Actually, Jackie thought, that was the truth. What had passed between her and William could have been one-sided. She didnât want to tell Terri what she was feeling and then end up looking as though sheâd made a fool of herself over some man. And most definitely she did not want to tell Terri that this man was one of Jace and Nellie Montgomeryâs sons. For some odd reason, Terri seemed to believe that every man in Chandler was worthless. Maybe she thought sheâd gotten the only good one, or maybe it was just that familiarity breeds contempt. Sheâd known all the men of Chandler for so long that she considered them incapable of inspiring passion or even love. Terri had her own idea of a perfect man: the more exotic the better. She once asked Jackie how she could have been to France and not fallen in love with a Frenchman. âOr an Egyptian,â Jackie had said, laughing. âTheyâre the best-looking men on earth.â
âThis is really a business arrangement. I mentioned my wanting to start a freight business, and he said he was looking for something to do, so it just happened. Heâs gone to Denver to buy a couple of planes.â
âAnd thatâs it?â
âThatâs all there is to it.â
Terri didnât say anything, but put her teacup down, leaned back in her chair, and stared at her friend. âIâm not leaving here until you tell